1,2: these were just for fun to see if i could come up with deep lines.
3,4: these were about how my past friends hurt me but the friends I've made outweigh that pain
5,6: me just messing around trying to come up with things to write about
7: this one ironically cause ALOT of chaos cause hidden in the lines was my biggest secret... and people found out and it started a chain reaction that led all the way up till the last poem number 49.
8. The first person to find the secret message said they wouldnt tell anyone what it was about if i wrote one for them.... so thats what i did
9. The pain of being alone
10. The pain of having false rumors spread about you
11. Another one that i wrote for fun
12. Another person that found out the meaning of Edgars Valentine.
13. Another one i wrote for fun
14. The struggle of helping your friends when they are going through a tough time
15. A message to the person thats hidden in number 7
16. This one was written when someone didnt feel the same as me
17. Wanting to go back to simpler times
18. Missing someone that didnt miss me
19. Misinterpreted how someone felt
20. Wanting to talk to someone who obviously didn't want to talk to me
21. The difference between art and poetry
22. About being in a phase of life where you dont know how to feel
23. A message about wanting to be with someone thats far away but not being able to
24. About my coping mechanism of using comedy to avoid talking about my feelings
25. I had to send a message that hurt someone i cared about and i doubted they would ever forgive me
26. Contemplating opening up to someone i cared about hoping it wasnt too late
27. Written for fun
28. Even if the way i feel is one sided it wouldn't change anything
29. The effect a broken heart can have
30. Hoping to gain forgiveness for something i had to say that hurt someone
31. The pain of losing people you care about and how it affects relationships you have in the future
32. Each paragraph was written to a friend i lost
33. The realization that i lost someone i cared about despite all of my efforts to correct things
34. Even if the people i care about don't care about me ill always care about them anyways
35. Basically the dream life that everyone wants
36. What you say to the people that hurt you when you don't want them to feel bad
37. Wondering why can't it be as simple as apologizing and being forgiven
38. Remembering the past but realizing I'm going to have to move on
39. Trying to move on but realizing it isn't easy
40. For fun
41. Things i learned throughout life
42. Determination to move on past painful losses
43. So many opportunities in life and its difficult to know what to do
44, 45. Written for fun
46. Once you truly move on you start to be aware of new things and people
47. Restarting the cycle of hoping the future of friendships don't end like some in the past did
48. Written for fun
49. Hoping that the people who left don't regret leaving because i have moved on as much as they did
