I wrote about how it felt to be needed a few poems ago. How it felt fantastic and how the pain was a no show.
But feeling like you hurt the people you care the most about. Thats a pain you can deal without.
What makes it worse is knowing from the start, that sticking to your gut is just going to punish your heart.
When i try to make it better day by day, but i cant find the words to know what to say.
I dont know how they feel if they are sad or if they hate, but it feels like my efforts are too little, too late.
I wish i could go back to when things were fine, back to when our future was mine.
I dont know if this is the end, but I'm just about done with playing pretend.
Pretending like nothings wrong and noone is hurt, because i know we both feel like our heart is in the dirt.
So ill try to pick mine up and rinse it with time, i hope what you are looking for is what you will find.
