Constellations

Advantages

Keith stood at Lances door as it was open for him to see the paladin laying in bed with his back to them, he hasn't said anything for two hours since he's got out of the pod. Everyone stood in the hall as Keith didn't know whether to leave him or not.

Lance wasn't sleeping though, no one knew that as he just was breathing with his blanket pulled up to his nose. He was staring at the blank wall with his sightless eyes as he couldn't cry anymore, he knew they where watching. Lance wanted to hate them for that advantage they all use without knowing, but he guessed he did that too until two hours ago. He couldn't hate them because it wasn't their fault.

He felt someone sit on the bed with him but their where heavier than Keith so he knew it couldn't be him.

"H-hunk?" Lance rasped turning his head.

"Nope,"

"Shiro," he whispered closing his eyes.

"You hear to tell me your sorry too?" Lance sniffled sitting up as he ran a hand through his hair to move it out of his face but his hand lingered in his hair for a moment. Touching his hair felt different, how was he going to make sure it didn't look ridiculous or start curling again.

"Of course I'm sorry for what happened lance, I'm not going to lie, but for what it's worth, I know the feeling of something so valuable to you being taken away," Shiro closer his robotic hand and lance could hear it moving mechanically.

"I always knew ill die but one day I found out I was sick, I thought death was coming a lot sooner than anyone would thought, I was healthy, smart, did everything right to keep living, but when I found out, I didn't let it stop me... and when I lost my arm..." Shiro let out a sigh and lance looked down sadly.

"I'm sorry," Lance whispered.

"It's okay lance, my point is, there are things we don't expect and they just happen, but it's not always going to be hell, use it to your advantage," he smiled gently at the blind paladin.

"No offense Shiro but not being able to see is kinda different than having a robotic arm, you can still fight... I'm just useless now... I can't shoot when I can't see the target," lance pulled the blankets off as he was getting antsy than just being there covered.

"I get that, you need some time, we're staying on the planet Rotazik, you will be able to adjust there hopefully," Shiro sighed standing up.

"Shiro?"

"Yea Lance?"

"Do you think I'll be able to see again at all? And don't... don't lie to make me feel better," Lance held his hands tightly as he closed his sightless eyes.

"If I'm being honest, no, I'm sorry for that lance, but your still one of us," Shiro offered a soft smile but lance didn't even try to smile.

He left the room silently as lance put his face in his hands shaking his head.

"I said don't lie," he whispered. He wasn't going to be treated the same, they'll replace him soon enough.

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The next day lance finally left his room but he touched the cold walls to navigate himself through the halls as he tried to remember every left and right he had to make to find everyone, how many footsteps it takes, if he could even hear someone.

"Hello?" His hand slipped when it became a door way instead.

"Guys?" Lance called softly as he walked into the room still touching the wall. His stomach growled in hunger and he swallowed a lump in his throat as he was thirsty for water as well.