Aphrodisiac (Completed)

1.Welcome To The Neighborhood

I laid in bed waiting for my alarm I set as habit to go off.

I never can fully sleep if I sleep at all as being a single mother and a single woman sometimes has it tolls.

So many years ago when I took my vows and bore my children I never thought I would end up here lonely and struggling to be a great parent.

As my alarm go off it becomes a symbol for my life my sound of failures.

I turn over to cut it off as I look at the picture of my ex husband and my heart bleeds anger and disappointment as his indiscretions are still hard to stomach even almost a year after being divorced.

As much as I wish I could hit a reset on my life the picture of my babies come into view as seeing them brings joy to my face.

They are the only right decision I have ever made and my reason to go on even though I am weary too.

Sliding my feet out and on the cold floor I make my way into my bathroom to get ready for the day.

Staring at myself 31 years old and I look dull and buffed man who would of thought 12 years of marriage could drained you.

Not wanting to deter myself anymore I let the warm water cover my body as I yearn for affection that I won't ever get again.

After dressing and cleaning up I make my kids breakfast as they say the first meal of the day is the most important.

Being that we just moved to this town I want them to get a good start on the day.

"Cordell!!! Wake up honey time for school..." I yell down the hall as I wake my little princess Imani up.

As she rubs her eyes sweetly and I tell her to head into my bathroom to take a shower as I take her clothes out for school I shake my head as I know my son won't get up.

After picking out Imani clothes I walk down the hall and knocked on Cordell's door.

"Cordell baby come on it's time to wake up for school..." I say louder and closer to his door knowing him he put the pillow on his head.

"Come on mama a few more minutes please...." I hear him say and I laugh before opening his door.

Seeing that we just moved in two days ago everything is still not unpacked except for Imani's room as I left the tasked of Cordell's room to him and he like always lacks behind gets it from his father honest.

"Cordell get up now before you're late for school I made you and your sister some breakfast and didn't I tell you to unpack your room boy?" I say pulling the covers off of him as he slides deeper in bed.

"Mama it's a process and do I really got to go to school please can I stay home I just want a few more hours of sleep..." He whines as I see the culprit to his sleep deprivation.

"Boy were you up late reading these comics again I told you to go to bed and you didn't now you got to pay the piper I bet you next time you would listen and go to sleep right now get up boy don't make me get the cold water..." I say as he jumps up at my bluff.

"Okay mama I'm up happy and I have you know you should be happy I was up reading as you and daddy say reading is fundamental and daddy say it will keep me educated." My son says beaming about his father and my heart twinge a little as this situation is not the ideal.

"Yeah but we also say slacking is for losers so come on and get your ass on before I pop you smart mouth..." I say as I rough him up but hug him and kiss him as he run off to the bathroom to get ready.

"Mama are you going to be home today after school or is grandma picking us up?" My little Imani who is all but 8 years old says and I smile.

"I will be picking you guys up today after school and we will be helping your brother unpack his room..." I say narrowing my eyes at Cordell as he eats and read his comic.