Journey To Rabbit Hole

Part 12 (Dive!)

Forth's POV

I know we just started. Our relationship is so new. I never do this before. I did not know how. All they said when you dating someone then you should bring your love one outing together, watching movie, eat together. I want to do the same. But Beam is busy. Beam was right tho. He has right. I can't force him if he is busy.

He said it before, no matter how much he want to court me, he would not come to me on weekend. That was hurt.

Now we are boyfriend. I hope i can spend time with him. We are busy on weekday. Lab, assignment and report, exam and quiz, also with project group. Beam is medical student, he must have more work to do than me. That was tough subject compare to mine.

But today is Saturday, Beam said he had something to do last night. That mean he also busy on Sunday. I admit it that i am disappointed when he said that.

What did he do on weekend? . Why can't he give his time to me?. What is the real reason?. Where he going ?. Who with him?.

I want to ask that question. But it seem like i am to possessive. Then I choose not to ask. Maybe he was busy with study. Maybe he had study group with Phana and kit. I tried to think positive.

No way that he going out with a girls. Right?. I know i should not doubt him. But he is Casanova. He have that reputation. I don't want to find my boyfriend with a girls on his lap. Or on someone else bed.

Did Beam really stop playing around?. What if he still?. Oh God, Beam. I don't want to be this bad. But the more i missing you the more i think bad thing about you Beam.

Now what am i... did i lost my charm now that i fall for him. Damn it. Enchanted by him. I guess i am.

Sighed.

No text from him, not even call. Lam ask to go out today. And i joined them.

After lunch, now i end up hang out at the mall with my gangs watching movie. My face show all my feeling. I am not in mood. I want to be with him. Not even a week has passed since we are in relationship. I already feel this so much. I sighed again and again. Keep looking at my phone. Waiting for his text. But no. Nothing. This is how relationship suppose to? No idea.

"Why don't you call him...tell him that you miss him " Lam said to me.

I know they all must feel frustrated too. My mood bring them bad energy. I really don't mean to ruined their fucking day. But i just did.

" Beam is busy... i don't want to bother him " I smile thinly.

Lam nodded and taps my shoulder.

My gangs understand me. They stop asking about me and Beam.

Just when we finished watched the movie. I saw Pha with Wayo and also Kit and Ming also at the mall. So they have double date.
That mean Beam were not with them. Knowing that fact make my mood become more worse.

Where are you Beam?.

I just followed my gangs to everywhere. Tried to killed the time so the weekend will end in blinks. Monday is so fucking long.

Now is 12 am, Sunday. Still no news from him. I can't even sleep.

Beam's POV

Going back to my apartment almost 12 am. It is quite late, i wonder if he already sleep.
I did not waste any more time. I quickly take a shower. After that i wear a comfort clothes whirt shirt and short Jean.

I pack my clothes for tomorrow too. I plan to crash at his apartment for whole day. I hope he like it.

It take me 10 minutes to drive to his apartment. When i arrived at the parking park area. I decided to text him. Time now 12.20am.