Journey To Rabbit Hole

Part 47 ( You are good man! )

Third's Person POV

Did i make a mistake?...

Forth stole a glance at Beam while he still focus on road. He still in silent. Doesn't talking much with him.

" Beam..." look like he ponder about something. What could be on his mind?. Did i annoyed him?. Forth thought wander and beat around the bush.

Song in radio been play accompany their ride. Forth is not sure what is wrong with Beam.

" Baby??..." " Hmm " Beam humming low  sound.

" Are you okay baby? " He just shook his head. Not looking back to Forth at all.

Forth keep driving till he stop the car at the parking park. Stepping outside and walk to the bench at the public park. Again the views of Chao Phraya river in front of them;  It become their favourite place to date at night. Beam...it seem like his mind zooming and travel somewhere. Forth can't help but noticed his silent boyfriend that looking far away at the river. Wonder what could be on his mind. Forth took this time as chance to stare at his beautiful boyfriend beside him. Admiring those perfect facial of what was his, not that long eyelash with beautiful dark brown orb's, he see sparkle of love was there. The pinkish lip that so inviting him to nibbling as much as he want. Those plump cheek he wanted to kiss and he wanted to trail it down right to his jaw line. Beautiful yet handsome, adorable and appealing   a man he call as Beam, beaming smile,  he claimed him as his husband to be. He smile ear to ear so engaging with him, Beam.

As he keep wondering, here he tried to remember if by chance he have do something wrong. But i can't remember anything. Forth brow knotted hard. But then he can't find any reason for Beam to be not in mood. Well he thought so and decided to let it by... not the right time to asked. Forth snorted. Again he can't take his  eyes from keep  looking at his beautiful  soulmate that sat beside him. He smile dearly at Beam. Beam realize that though  but Beam just keep on his own thoughts. 

Silentness accompany them for awhile now allow both of themself ruminated deeply.

Beam was not talking and so does Forth. For now.   Beam were pondering and he is full with emotion but he keep it in bottles. Thinking that now was not the right time to drop the boom. Well they just finished thier not so romantic dinner after all. Thus he think he can wait and asking Forth some other time. May be later or tomorrow or. Whose know. While Forth thinking that he was not making any mistake. Hence he was proud that he telling himself. ' I have done well '. He was done it so well for not kissing and devour his man merciless.

Forth is the man with high sexual drive...he himself been wondering how can he that  calmed when Beam keep talking about a thing that remind him about he and Beam on bed. From banana to meatballs, Forth almost lost his mind when Beam talk about it.

Not that Forth know that Beam intentionally doing that kind of seduction to him. He was taking Frank adviced to the very next level that he be this so calmed. Hoping that he is has not thinking sex after marriage will be better option, as he want to be a good man. How irony the good man definition is. But doubt if he can wait until then anyway. But then...again to see he survive to this point, he sure have very strong self control.

Their date end well with Forth as always send him back home. With not so passion kissed they have shared every night. It wasn't enough for both of them. But neither one of them talking about it or admit it. Yet.

One full with assumptions while one full with motivation.

The next Monday went as usual for Beam. They had spent their weekend time together like usual. From movie date, lunch together and dinner together. Nothing different which mean they still at it. Forth still limit himself from going far in romance. While Beam almost exploded, he keep wondering why and what. Forth still oblivious despite Beam keep giving him a hint to him. Too much of  a good guy complexity.