Journey To Rabbit Hole

Part 35 ( I won't give up )

Beam's POV

I lie on my bed, i am not crying...

I am not that sad either. Angry? Disappointed? Longing? 

At this point, i don't know what i felt. I don't know how to label my own feeling either.

Have you ever feel the same as me?.

I Sighed...i lie on my back at the bed with the duvet that cover half of my body...i let the window open and time now 1 am, calm breeze hit the curtain. Not many stars tonight and the moon look so dimmed. Will it rain later ?.

Sighed... i can't sleep!

" How can the world is that small...you and Phi Earth turned out was sibling and he is your brother... " again i sighed as i asking myself.

Pring and Phi Mario tell me everything had happened. How Forth meet with them at the party...and Forth has told me about James and Gun too.

I don't want to meet with any of them...those fucking bastard.

Mother called me for so many times before i changed my number last time...but i refused to answered it.  We haven't  talk with each other for almost 6 months now.

And I don't want to know anything about them either. Well Mario told me he met with James and Gun too. Nothing much he do other than give them the warning... those two send their apologized to me as i refused to meet and talk with them.

I have fall to the trapped that they made; that ruined my relationship.

I don't know what to do about James and Gun either. But to heard that Forth have throw them some punches. I feel satisfied...at least. For now.

And...

I remember every word that Forth have said to me this past few days when he come to meet with me every opportunity. He come to Faculty of Medicines... he come to the restaurant... just now.

Sighed.

I can see the pain, i can feel how much he regretted everything  that had happened between us. But i need some more time.

Like i said...i know this my mistake in the first place for not told him earlier and make our ships sailing without direction and we fall apart.

I know.

His word just now...i know he felt sorry...i know he mean it when he said sorry.

Would that be enough? I Sighed...tossed and turned on my bed.

What i want? I don't know anymore.... no...no, maybe  no word can describes what i feel now.

Flashback

Third's Person POV

Sunday. 11. 10 pm.

Forth come to La Pasta right after Beam finished his work as the restaurant closed.

Beam saw he waited for him at outside. Pring and Jane looked at Forth with furious eyes...he asked Beam, for a time to listen to him.

" Beam...please na. Talk to me...10 minutes...give me 10 minutes na Beam..." Beam sighed

10 minutes should be fine...so Beam gave Forth his times.

Beam don't know why he agree though.  Maybe because he too tired to chase him away or maybe because he feel pity since Forth waited for him to talk.

" I am sorry for everything i had said to you Beam..." Forth said to Beam.

Beam silence as he listened to Forth attentively.