Journey To Rabbit Hole

Part 43 ( At the right pace )

Forth's POV

We been here for fourth night, be with Beam and his called family. But... I must say that i am still a bit awkward at this pretty big mansion. Beam spend the most of time with his mother. So i always end up alone. Err...not that kind of alone...it just without him. Not that i don't like it. I am understand his situation though.

I just don't know how to start the conversation between two of us, being here myself with Uncle John. I really need Beam beside me to make this awkwardness gone or lesser. I facepalming.

After dinner done just now me and uncle just sit at the couch in the living room. In front of us a glass of tea for each accompany ours night. While Beam already go to his mother's room.

He look at me while smiling " I am sorry for sudden asking...but what about you two young man?. Between you and our Beam.

I gulp. I never think about this question could pop up as the starting of our conversation right now.

I gave a silent respond for a minutes. But before i can give him my answer. He speak first "I already know that you two are together before. So are two really was broke up and being friends right now?. "

Stillness begin to take control between us.

But i know he was genuine to know about me and Beam. So i nods back to him " Yes, Uncle. For now we just as close friend."

" Do you still love Beam?." I smile and nods " I only love him. Before, now and in future. I know my heart will always choose him. " I said in confidence.

He nods at me. Not that i know what he is thinking now.

" So close friends?. Very interesting. I know someone that said almost the same thing before. " He chuckles

I just smile, without he said who is the one. I can already guess that one is Beam's mother.

" Then...uncle what are you doing when that one said that you two can only be friends?" The curios actually make me bold now.

" Well. Like a friends should be. Well you know i meant. Right?. " He said and that smirks. I know he and might think the same.

Although i still doubt what is mean. Well, maybe he see it right through in me. " Like a friends should be. "

" Love and friendships is not always express by words only. To understand between the line. You would know which way it turn... trust is important. " Uncle said.

I nods again. He make time before he told me he want to take a rest and call it night. He get up and taps my back when he walk passing by me. I tilt my head and then he said " Never give up on starting new. You are in the right track and pace now. He love you as much as you do. I know you can see that through his eyes too. So like a friends should be it is. " I smile back at him and nods. No more doubt that he know.

" Good night Uncle."

"Good night Forth..."

Soon after that i enter the guest bedroom too. It is pass 11 pm. This pretty mansion indeed silence. I don't know where is Khun James goes to. He was not always home since we were here. Either he still feel guilty which he should. He come to me and apologized to me countless time. I know he regretted it. But...what he have done was done. Nothing can make this undo. As long as he realized what he have done was wrong. He repent... i won't judge him. He stil Beam's half brother...the best i can do is still respect him as someone that older than me. My parents teached me so. Respect the elder.

Now I lay on the bed. Check my phone... i saw my friend tagged me on Ig about their trips at the beach. I saw Pha and Kit tagged Beam too on their picture. I just smile... we are on the right track on this road.