Journey To Rabbit Hole

Part 26 ( Misery - Once called home)

Third's Person POV

Beam lying down on the floor above all the pictures of himself. He stare at the white ceiling... he is no longer crying, for now. But he is hurt, in pain, despair and miserable.

While Pring, is busy packing Beam's item in Forth's house Like Forth said. Beam can't even left tiny bit of his thing in Forth's house, so all must be cleared. Being a good sister as she is, Pring do her job packed all Beam's clothes, his shoes, his books and some of his collection like Beam's watch and bracelets, his mugs and toiletries, every single thing of Beam's. Not to wasted any of time, Pring bring Beam's thing to Beam's car. The last thing is one box that content Beam's books and stationery also the owner that still lying on the floor, looking so helpless.

Pring sit on her knee on the floor, caresses Beam's hairs, Pring's tears finally drop, unknowingly.

She knew how Beam's hate someone give him sympathy looked so Pring hold back her tears... she spoke to Beam in almost whispers..."Beam...i have done packed all of your thing na...lets going back to your place na Beam..." Said Pring to Beam.

Beam looked at Pring and he can only nodded in weak... slowly, when Beam get up from his position and stand, he almost stumble.

Beam looked around, scanning the whole room, the bedroom and kitchen "It is no longer my home...i now lost my home..." Beam said to himself.

Beam walked to the door, he took all his pictures with him... Beam looked at Pring and stared at the door after Pring closed it, Beam said, again almost as whisper but Pring can heard it.... " Even if i slam this door like his owner did ...he won't be home... and its not my home...no longer the place where i could feel the warm feeling that can completed me... he left me... even he say he won't let me go before... but he just did...because i make him go..."

Beam walk passed by the corridor, he remember one time Forth had kissed him at the middle of that place. "He kissed me on these very place, he can't take the key in hurried...he said he can't waited so he kissed me here." Beam said, He is not crying but a sad tone of his voices can be heard.

"We once too drunk and had danced at these hallway too...but looked at me now...even if i were sobered i can only dance by my own...even now music is died...our song is gone, because i make him go...my own stupidest. I wish i can foresee it so i can fix it through the night...turn back the time before i go with my plan...before all of this, i know now it is too late...he already believed it that way." Beam remember every vivid of him and Forth, every of it.

Pring only can watch how despared and dejected Beam is. Not that she can do anything, Forth even refused to listen. All she can do is to take care of Beam. Pring know that Beam was not okay at all.

Pring's POV

I drive Beam's car to his apartment and leave my car, i can just take a cab to comeback here later then bring my car to Beam's place. I can't leave him alone, when he so not Beam, the person beside me was not Beam, the one that i know whose is so strong, always smiling, naughty and sassy but now he so fragile, and now he is at the worse stage of him... its so not him.

In these state... Beam can't even drive by himself. And I heard it all...what Beam just said.

Every word that Beam said just now, i feel like lightning were struck. I saw those pictures...Beam said he cheated on Forth and i knew it was not the truth... i refused to believed that Beam cheat on Forth. I trust Beam, he would never done that, something is not right...i want to ask Beam...but he was not in stable condition... how can he got himself on bed with a girls?. What happened that night in Chiang Mai...

The real deal is, i know for sure Beam is not a cheater. He will never be the one. Beam love Forth so much... he love him more than he love himself, that was enough for him not to betray his Forth.