BTS Imagines 3 (Complete)

RM

It's been a few months since your boyfriend died. You were together for three years. He was charming, sweet, and also your best friend's brother. The three of you were inseparable. It was all fun and games...until your boyfriend got sick. The doctors gave him three months to live but didn't get that far. He died about a month later.

You weren't yourself. Before, your life was filled with colors. But now you think about how gray the world is.

Namjoon hates seeing you so depressed so he tried everything he can to make you feel better. As time passed, your heart began to heal and you were starting to feel happiness again just like you did with your boyfriend. But as soon as you realized that your happiness was the same as when you were with your boyfriend, you began to push yourself away from Namjoon.

You had to convince yourself that it wasn't appropriate to have feelings for your boy friend's brother. You knew it wasn't right. But your mind kept reminding you that he's dead and he will never come back.

The one year of his death was coming around, you were sitting in front of his grave, holding flowers. Your hand clutched onto the necklace that he gave you for your birthday. That day is when he proved to you how much he loved you.

"Hey."

Once you heard a familiar voice, you stood up and faced him. Namjoon was holding flowers, a soft smile placed on his face.

"I wasn't expecting you to come at this time. You're usually working", you said.

"Took the day off today", he said, placing the flowers on his brother's grave.

You nodded and kept your eyes looking at the ground. Namjoon scratched the back of his neck while clearing his throat.

"How have you been? I haven't seen you these past couple of days", he said.

"...Namjoon..I can't do this. I can't pretend everything is fine between us. I just can't", you whispered.

"Then admit that you love me too", he said.

You looked up at him, his smile being replaced by a thin line. You then looked down at the grave, frowning.

"I know you still love him. But he's gone. He's been gone for a year now. Before he died, he asked me to look out for you. I promised him that. But you can't blame me for falling in love with you. All I was trying to do is protect you", he said, reach in over to grab your hand but you pulled away.

"(Y/n)...please..You don't think I feel bad?? He was my brother. And I lost him. I can't bare it if I lose you too. I didn't plan for this to happen", he said.

"I..I have to go", you said before quickly walking away.

"(Y/n), wait!", Namjoon called out but you were already in your car, driving away.

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You were in your room, looking at a picture of you and your late boyfriend on your first date. You thought about how he would feel about your feelings towards Namjoon.. because you did love him too.

"I can't love him", you whispered.

You laid down on your bed and closed your eyes while hugging the picture. You dozed off to sleep.

You ended up having a dream about your late boyfriend. You were happy to see him and glad to feel him again. He said something about moving on and that all he wants is for you to be happy. He can sense that you're not. You gave him one last kiss until he faded away. You woke up the next morning heading knocks on the door.

When you checked the peephole, you noticed Namjoon knocking frantically. You were hesitant of opening the door but you couldn't just leave him out there. It's raining and he'll get a cold.

"What are you doing here?", you asked, letting him in.

"Look, I know that you still love him. I understand that. I mean, you've known each other for years. You think if you love someone else, he won't forgive you. But didn't he say one time that all he cares about is your happiness? Why would he not forgive you for finding happiness?", he said, evening out his breath as he felt the cold water dripping down his body.

You just stared at him, trying to figure him out. You thought about it a lot. Would he really hate you if you loved someone else?

"(Y/n), please say something", he said.

You didn't say anything. You wrapped your arms around his neck and kissed him. He was surprised at first but kissed you back right away. He pushed you up against the wall and put more pressure into the kiss. Your hands made their way to the hem of his shirt and lifted it up to get rid of it. He lifted up your legs and carried you into the bedroom.

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The next hour you woke up to have your head rest against his chest. You finger drew small circles on his stomach.

"You okay?", he asked, caressing your back.

"Yeah it's just...it feels different", you said.

"Different good or different bad?", he asked.

"..I don't know", you mumbled.

"We don't have to do it again if you don't feel comfortable. I just..really love you. We can give this a try and if you still don't feel the same, ill leave you alone. Is that okay?", he asked.

You sighed and hugged him tighter, taking in his scent.

"Namjoon..", you said.

"Yeah?", he lifted up his head.

"...I love you", you mumbled.

He chuckled softly before kissing the top of your head.

"I love you too."
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