Alone With My Thoughts | Jikook

Chapter 2. Pain

Jimin glanced around the room everyone's eyes were on Hoseok. He got up and walked to the balcony. Dancing was the only way he could take his mind off Jungkook and his girlfriend. The group didn't want him dancing right now so he went to the balcony and started practicing the choreography for Serendipty creating a little circle of Army cheering him on. He did feel some pain in his leg but it was bearable. His chest had hurt more.

Army yelling and cheering really cheered him up a bit though. Once he finished the choreography he heard a voice asking why he was dancing outside and not in the studio. He looked at everyone and gave them finger hearts. "Hobi Hyung is currently dancing and I don't want to get in the way!" He beamed smiling brightly at the Army.

They all cooed "your so thoughtful Jimin oppa!" Many girls yelled. He just smiled and waved before walking back into the studio. Hoseok had stopped dancing and everyone was just talking so Jimin started practicing Serendipity with the music. Jin didn't interrupt this time. He could feel there eyes on him but he didn't care he just wanted to keep dancing as it was stopping the tears from falling. "Just keep yourself busy Jimin! Then you won't cry." He thought to himself.

Once the song ended everyone cheered hoping he would take a proper rest now but he didn't. They gave up on telling him to rest as he wasn't listening so they just let him be. He continued to dance until Namjoon told everyone to get into position as they were about to dance to Go go.

Jimin was extremely tired at this point but refused to rest. The second the song ended he collapsed on the ground resting for a moment so he could catch his breath. Jungkook was getting quite concerned but figured he would ask him at the dorms. He walked up to Jimin and handed him a bottle of water. "We are leaving in about 20 minutes okay?" Jungkook sighed.

Jimin accepted the water and nodded. He gulped down the water and began dancing again. Jungkook walked back to the others. They were all talking about him. "I know Jimins hard working but he's pushing himself to much! He's not going to be able to walk tomorrow if he keeps this up!" Jin mumbled concerned. "Yeah how can he do it? This whole time i've just been thinking about my sweet, soft, warm bed..." Yoongi sighed causing the members to chuckle a little. "Do you only think of sleep Yoongi?" Hoseok laughed. "I want to be a rock in my next life..." Yoongi continued causing all the members to laugh including Jimin as he danced.

"Namjoon? Can we go over Fire one more time?" Hoseok asked as Namjoon nodded. "Jimin were going to do fire then we are leaving, okay?" Namjoon sighed. Jimin nodded walking over to his water and chugging it down. Before flicking the music to fire.

Everyone got into there position as the Music started. Jimin tripped during the practice making Hoseok laugh but he just got up and continued as if nothing happened. Once they finished everyone packed up and left. Jungkook had drove Jimin to the studio today so they both got in the car and headed to the dorm.

"Kookie?" Jimin muttered quietly. "Yeah Jiminie?" Jungkook replied happily. "Does...does this mean..." Jimin was struggling to get the words out as the pain in his chest grew. "Hmm?" Jungkook sighed. "Your going to...move out?" Jimin gulped a tear falling from his eye. Jungkook laughed "Of course not! Never! I could never leave you alone!" Jungkook exclaimed upset by Jimins question. "Good" Jimin sighed wiping his tear.

The rest of the ride Jimin stayed silent afraid that if he spoke all that would come out were sobs. He was happy it was to dark for Jungkook to notice the tears he couldn't keep in. Once they reached the dorm Jimin ran into his room and locked his door before jumping on the bed and crying. Someone was banging on the door and he knew who it was, Jungkook. "Jimin! Let me in!" He moaned "Why?" Jimin yelled back trying to sound as normal as possible considering he was crying. "Because it's my room too!" He continued. Jimin sighed wipping his tears. "Oh Yeah!" He pretended to laugh.

He opened the door and walked past Jungkook leaving him confused. Jimin walked straight to Taehyungs room and knock on the door. Tae opened it to find Jimin in tears. Hoseok was sitting on the bed staring in horror as Jimin looked so broken. Everyone knew he loved Jungkook he couldn't imagine the pain he must be feeling right now.

It broke his heart to see Jimin like this. Taehyung brought Jimin to the bed and hugged him tightly allowing him to cry on his chest. Taehyung stroked his hair while Hoseok tried to make him feel better any way he could think of. "Its going to be okay Jimin! You will find someone else! Everything is going to be just fine." Hoseok cooed. "I don't want someone else....I want him..." Jimin sobbed. This continued for hours until Jimin finally had the energy to get up and leave.

"Wait!" Hoseok yelled. Jimin turned around. "You have to eat!" He shot pulling Jimin to the kitchen. Jungkook was there having a snack and waiting for Jimin to return. Hoseok sat him down and prepared him a meal. "I'm not hungry hyung." Jimin sighed. "Don't lie! You haven't eaten all day!" Hoseok countered. Catching Jungkooks attention.

"Why didn't you eat Jimin?" Jungkook questioned concerned. "I wasn't hungry." He muttered pouting. Jungkook felt terrible. Jimin looked so sad. That glint in his eye was fading it was still there, bearly. Hoseok put a bow of noodles in front of him and refused to leave until he ate them. Once Jimin finished he hugged Hoseok and thanked him before going to his room and taking a shower. Jungkook was waiting on his bed for him.

Once Jimin finished Jungkook ran over and tackled him. Jimin just smiled sadly. Jungkook then ran into the bathroom to bathe. His mind wandering to Jimin. He was hurting him all because he didn't want to hurt a girl. He caused this because of his awkwardness around girls. He felt terrible. He loves Jimin and he's hurting him. "I don't know what to do..." He muttered under his breath before stepping out of the bath and putting on a red silk robe and walking out to the bedroom to grab a pair of pyjamas.

He entered the bathroom once again and changed into his Cooky pyjamas. Brushed his teeth and cleaned his face. When he came back out Jimin was asleep with smallntears trickling down his face as little whimpers escaped his sleeping body. This broke Jungkooks heart seeing the man he loved in this condition. Jimin is usually happy and bubbly not sad and gloomy. He didn't like this new Jimin.

"You've only been around a day and I hate you! I want to see your happy smile and cute giggle your not the same!" Jungkook whispered under his breath before crawling into bed and trying to sleep. He had forgotten Jimin was a light sleeper and had woken up to Jungkook saying I hate you. "He..hates me?" Jimin thought to himself as he silently sobbed while the pain in his chest returned once again.