Alone With My Thoughts | Jikook

Chapter 19. Hate

"J-Jimin!?"

My head shot up as my eyes widened in disbelief, Jimin was awake. He- he's alive!
Tears of joy flooded down my face like a waterfall as I stared at the angel in front of me. "Y-you're alive. YOU'RE ALIVE!" I screamed the joy in my chest almost hurting as I jumped out of my seat showing my biggest bunny smile as I happily jumped up and down.

Jimin just stared at me, he didn't say anything. He just stared, as if he was searching for something. Eventually after Jeongguk calmed down and sat down his eyes sparkling with joy as the tears were never ending, spilling down his face as the smile never left his face.

Jimin slowly opened his mouth and coughed slightly. "W-why are y-you h-here?" Jimin crooked. Jeongguk smile faltering slightly. "W-what?" He stuttered. "I-i'm. I-i'm not d-dead?" Jimin asked his voice weak but that question alone sent daggers straight into Jeongguk heart as this time, he lost his smile.

"N-no, why- why d-did you try t-to leave m-me..?" Jeongguk stated in a shaky voice as Jimins eyes widened. "L-leave you? W-when did I ever m-matter to, t-to y-you?" Jimin retorted. Jeongguk let out a sob as the tears turned from joy to heartbreak. As he covered his mouth in an attempt to block more sobs.

"J-Jimin, y-you always m-mattered to m-me" Jeongguk cried his voice slightly muffled due to his hand. "R-REALLY? T-THEN WHY D-DID YOU C-CAUSE ME T-THIS P-PAIN?" Jimin screeched. Jeongguk lowered his head.

"I-i'm so, so sorry.. I-I didn't mean t-to.. T-that doesn't matter I-I deserve h-hell for w-what I caused y-you.." Jeongguk cried. Jimin remained silent listening to Jeongguk.

"Y-you are so p-perfect J-Jimin. I-I am S-so so s-sorry" Jeongguk continued to cry as he cut himself off just looking st his lap and crying using his hands to cling to the fabric.

"Apology not accepted." Jimin stated bluntly. As he heard Jeongguk choke back a sob he watched Jeongguks body shake violently from the crying. It hurt seeing the one he lived like this but, he couldn't find it in him to forgive him. He knows it wasn't all Jeongguk fault he didn't even mean to get a girlfriend. So why am I so mad at him?

Jeongguk got up slowly and made his way for the door. "W-whete are you g-going?" Jimin croaked. Jeongguk turned around and smiled at Jimin through his tears. "To tell Dr. Chan you are awake, I need to be sure nothing is wrong with you I wouldn't be able to live with myself" Jeongguk sighed as he turned away from Jimin to open the door. That's when Jimin noticed it.

Jeongguk changed. He looked so skinny and pale he had dark circles around his eyes and all his muscles were gone. He himself looked sickly, but why?

To Bangtan

Jeongguk walked over to the others and the second Jin seen Jeongguk he rushed over and hugged the sobbing, shaky boy. "Jeongguk, baby what's wrong?" Jin asked worriedly cupping the boys face as if he was his mother. "J-jimin." Jeongguk muttered all the members eyes widening "I-is he..?" Yoongi couldn't finish his sentence but Jeongguk knew what he meant. "H-hes awake.." He sobbed the members all became excited as they quickly stood up from their seats.

"Why are you crying Jeongguk?" Jin questioned confused as to why he was so upset. "H-he hates m-me h-hyung.." Jeongguk sobbed once he finished the sentencehis body started shaking with more violence. Jin quickly pulled him into a tight hug as he rubbed soothing circles on his back all the members joining in whispering sweet nothings into his ears.

"Come on, me and Jeongguk will go looking for Dr. Chan. You guys go see Jimin okay? I'm sure he wants to see you." Jin stated as all the members just nodded making there way to Jimins room. As Jin and Jeongguk walked to the reception lady.

"Excuse me? Hello? Yes, uh do you happen to know where Dr. Chan is?" Jin politely asked as the lady nodded. "Dr. Chan is currently on his lunch break right now, would you like to leave him a message?" Jin nodded.

"Park Jimin is awake."
The lady's eyes widened as she quickly called Dr. Chan. "Sir, quickly Park Jimin is awake. You need to get here" The lady ended the call and put the phone down facing the two males.
"He will be there in less than 10 minutes." The males nodded making there way back to Jimins room. As they entered all eyes turned to them as Jimin seen Jin his eyes lit up with joy.

"Hyung!!" Jimin exclaimed as Jins heart melted he rushed to the boy still connected to tubs and hugged him tightly. Jeongguk slowly stalking to the sofa and throwing himself on it as he just stared at Jimin his eyes showed worry love and concern.

Jimin pretended to pay no notice to the boy as he laughed with his hyungs and Taehyung. Until.

"JEON JEONGGUK!" Namjoon screeched causing Jeongguk to jump. Namjoon stormed over to the shaking boy. Shoving his phone in his face. "What. Is. This?" Jeongguk glanced at the phone his mouth creating an 'o' shape. "I thought we agreed. No vlives." Namjoon stated.

"No hyung. You agreed on that. I couldn't just sit around and hope he would wake up! ARMY were concerned! I had to give them a reason as to why we cancelled the tour! Besides I didn't say the truth! And I hid him from the view!" Jeongguk stated.

"Its not that Gguk! It's the fact that you look ill! Gosh! This is why you should have kept on top of your own health! No look at all these articles!" Namjoon stated.

"Hyung, they thought I tried to kill him.. They thought I tried to push him off the balcony.. I-I didn't.." Jeongguk sobbed Namjoons eyes widened.

"What? Gguk listen, J-just don't listen to those news reports but please at least sleep or eat something! You haven't had a proper meal in 2 months! You have collapsed 3 times in 2 months. Jimins awake so now, sort yourself out." Namjoon sighed patting Jeongguk back as the members just stared in shock as their minds tried to peice what just happened.