Alone With My Thoughts | Jikook

Chapter 4. Your tears are falling

Jimin wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone so decided to sit crosslegged in the corner of the room avoiding the other members and blackpink.  He began to stare at the wall moving his finger in the air to distract him from looking in there direction.

'Do you feel proud? That you lost the love of your life? You must really be worthless to screw up that bad. Do you want to die?'

Jimin shook his head repeatedly hoping to shake that voice off.  So he decided to hum a lullaby his mother used to sing to him when he was young.

"Love whispers and whistles, it's cruel and it's sweet, if your lucky maybe it will work, your heart is a special thing, usually broken..."

Jimin felt a big hand in his shoulder and when he looked up he seen his hyung. "Hyung! You scared me!" Jimin laughed. Jin smiled.

"Why are you alone in the corner? Come sit with everyone."

Jimin nodded before getting up and slowly following Jin. He sat beside Jin which wasn't to close to Jungkook and his girlfriend.'He only pities you. He doesn't care. Just has to look good to impress Namjoon.' His subconscious told him. Jimin sat there in silence just staring at the table choking back his tears.

"What's wrong Jimin oppa? You seem upset. Did something happen?" Lisa yelled across the table catching everyone's attention. Jimin slowly looked up meeting everyone's eyes. He gulped hard before faking a smile that looked broken. His eyes didn't become crescent and there was no spark. "I'm fine L-lisa, you see I kinda hurt my leg yesterday.. and well it just hurts a bit" Jimin replied sadly his voice cracking slightly.

Jins POV

Somethings up with Jimin. In the kitchen yesterday... He looked so sad. He couldn't have just been making food..? Right? And now. He looks dead like a ghost. His voice is cracking. Is this all because of Jungkook and Jennie? Does he love him that much?

I watched Jimin, intensely watching as he raised his arm like a noodle until I spotted something on the sleeve. Little droplets of blood?

A/n POV

Jin left his seat and walked over to Jungkook. "I want to talk to you." Jin demanded walking to the balcony Jungkook following behind. Once they were on the balcony it was silent for a moment.

"Jungkook?"

He hummed in response. "Have you noticed Jimin acting...odd..?" Jin's questioned concern evident in his voice. "Yeah it's odd..." Jungkook replied.

"Maybe he's on his period" he joked causing Jin to face palm himself.

"Why did you and Jennie get together?" Jin asked "Its a long story..." Jungkook replied while Jin just sighed watching as Jungkook started to happily walk over to the door. "Jungkook!" Jin called causing Jungkook to freeze. "Did you say you hated him?" Jin sighed, the youngers eyes widening it took a moment for the realization to hit him.

'Jimins a light sleeper' The boy spun around. "Oh no. I said I hated this new him. I said I wanted the old Jimin back. I forgot he was a light sleeper. If he heard the hate part.. He gets so caught up on the bad parts.." Jungkook worried. As Jin sighed. "Don't worry I'm sure Jimin will understand. He knows you don't hate him deep down." Jin assured patting the boys back as the two began walking back to the main area.

Jimin was asleep while Taetae and hobi were giving him pigtails. One Tata bobbin and one mang bobbin.

"Lets go home!" Namjoon yelled waking Jimin and startling him causing him to fall off the chair making everyone laugh. 'There laughing at you. They find pleasure in your pain and embarrassment. Just give up.'