Alone With My Thoughts | Jikook

Chapter 15. Blank

WARNING;

THIS CHAPTER WILL CONSIST OF BLOOD AND GORE, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

The next morning Jimin woke up in the tight embrace of Jeongguks arms. Instead of resisting he allowed it, sinking into Jeongguks embrace. Jimin closed his eyes and gently hummed to himself. 

"Just let me love you~"

Little did the humming male know Jeongguk was awake, admiring the olders soft voice as he continued to sing Serendipity. Jeongguk slowly ran his thumb against Jimins chubby fingers. "Hmm, how happy does someone have to be to sing so early~?" Jeongguk hummed. Jimin's eyes widening after hearing the soft but croaky voice of the younger, his face heating up once he felt the gentle touch of his thumb against his fingers. The boy quickly turning around in fear of the younger seeing something he shouldn't see.

"Wake up you big baby~!" Jimin giggled. 'Why won't this feeling go away? Ugh, I feel so...Empty..?' Jimin's smile faded as he remembered the promise he made to himself once the pain and numbness mixed in. The older abruptly got up, the force breaking him from Jeongguks hold leaving Jeongguk confused but most of all hurt. Jimin left the room and went to the kitchen where he seen Namjoon and Jin being cute until Namjoon tried to cook. Jimin took a seat on the island and watched the couple. After about 15 minutes Namjoons phone rang.

'Jackson' 

Namjoon glanced at Jin who looked 'slightly' jealous, as he crossed his arms and raised a single eyebrow slightly raising on shoulder so he looked silted as he rested his body against the cupboards staring intensely at Namjoon and the phone while Namjoon answered and placed the phone on speaker.

'Namjoon-ah! What are you doing today?'

"Uh, well I have rehearsal and a photo shoot, why?"

'I miss you~'

Namjoon gulped hard and glanced at Jin, he had that deadly glare which Namjoon instantly knew. He's screwed.

"OK"

The sweating male looked to his boyfriend who had a smug smirk on his face as he began to cook again.

"We can meet today if you want?"

Jin froze muttering something under his breath.

'Really!?? Of course!'

With that Jackson hung up and Namjoon slowly turned to his boyfriend with a nervous smile. Jin of course returned his smile with an evil grin as he slowly opened the pan drawer and grabbed the biggest pan smiling sweetly at Namjoon. "Have fun cheater~" Namjoon gulped harshly. "J-Jinnie..Please.. We don't need to be violent about it-" Namjoon was cut off mid sentence as a pan began hurdling towards him. He quickly dodged rolling across the floor and grabbing his boyfriends legs the pan flying right past Jimins head who didn't even flinch.

"Jinnie! I will think of you the whole time! I love you only, baby~"  Namjoon cooed as he curled around Jins leg pleading as Jin just sighed. "Maybe, but you're sleeping on the couch. Bitch." Jin offered smirking evilly. "Anything baby~"

LATER~

The members were leaving for practice as they left Jeongguk, Taehyung, Hoseok and Yoongi were ignoring Jimin. They refused to try and talk to the short male and didn't want to stay near him for too long. It hurt Jimin deeply, but he refused to voice his concerns. I mean, this is what he wanted right?

'You pathetic, whore. Can't cope when they ignore you? Well let me break it down for you. They hate you, I don't know why Namjoon and Jin are still talking to you. Probably just pity your sorry ass. You gay ass little bitch, god you are so greedy! Someone worthy of living could have had the life you stole from them by being born. Gosh, just die! Why do you think they are ignoring you the way they are. They no longer have use for you and your ugly face. ARMY don't care about you they just act like they do because you're rich. You can't sing you look like a fish out of water when you dance. Your ugly face could literally be mistaken for road kill, how did someone so ugly and fat end up in BTS anyway? Do the world a favour and die, everyone would benefit. They will just get someone better, they probably never wanted you anyway. Just die! Die! Die! Die!'

The car ride went slowly, Jimin just stared out the window with the blank stare. The colour in his cheeks were gone, actually his cheeks where gone. There was no glint in his eye, they were just two lifeless brown orbs. His limbs were weak and motionless against the chair as he just stared. Staring, nothing more. Nothing less. Eventually they arrived and Jimin was last to get out, trying to find the energy to get up as he had to force all his strength to his arms to push the door open. 

Jimin sluggishly following behind the other members, with the same blank stare as in the car. Once they entered the studio, Jimin didn't go and dance like usual. He just stumbled to the seat, no one noticed as Blackpink was back for practice. Jimin just sat there slumped into the seat still staring, he didn't have enough energy or reason to move. He just wanted to sit there and not move forever. It took an hour before Lisa and Jennie stood in front of Jimin, yet he didn't notice. He was too caught up in the voice, he had completely forgotten he was in the real world. "Jimin oppa!" Lisa screamed poking his nose, Jimin just hummed. "We need to practice~" Lisa whinned pulling at Jimins arm to which the boy sighed and slowly got up, lifelessly strolling to his place. 

As the music started playing Jimin just kept missing the beat and messing up, he didn't fully execute the moves looking like a mindless zombie between the 3 idols. When it came to the moment where Jeongguk lifts Jimin to flip over the girls Jimin just walked to the bathroom and locked it. 

Jin knocked on the door, Jimin hesitantly opened to a confused Jin. "What happened out there?" Jimin shrugged. "I'm tired, too tired to do that move. I will hurt someone." Jimin confessed Jin nodding. "Hate to say it but, told you so~" Jin laughed walking to Namjoon as Jimin carefully walked to the group with a still blank face. "Guys, i'm sorry." Jimin heard Jeongguk sneer causing a lump to appear in his throat. "I- I just overworked myself so much, I- I can't dance right now.." Jimin confessed. "If I did that move, I might have hurt someone." Jimin explained the girls nodding in understanding where as Jeongguk just let out a long sigh and rolled his eyes. Jimins head hung low as he stumbled back the the seat throwing himself full force at it.

Lunch break came quick everyone sitting together as Jimin was left alone. Yoongi, Hoseok, Taehyung and Jeongguk avoiding him and getting annoyed at him for the simplest things. Jimin slowly looked around the room and noticed everyone was occupied. He didn't notice Jeongguks intense stare which was a mix of concern, anger, worry and confusion. 

Jimin slowly stood up and sluggishly walked to the balcony staring down thankful that no one was out today because it was lashing rain. The boy took one last glance and releashed a breath he didn't realise he was holding as he carefully stepped over the railing raising his arms out feeling the breeze. Jeongguks eyes widening as he abruptly pulled out of his seat causing everyone to look at him in confusion as he began to sprint to the balcony.

"J-JIMIN AH!"

Everyones gaze resting on the sight in front of them as they quickly realised what was happening. Jimin slowly turned his head to glance at Jeongguk taking in the youngers features for the last time, seeing the tears stain his cheeks as Jimins tears ran cold. Jimin gave Jeongguk an apologetic smile before leaning forward as Jeongguk reached his hand out to grab the smallers wrist, it was too late. He seen the boy's body fall from view. As he fell on his knees.

"J-JIMIN AH! T-this, this- THIS IS JUST A C-CRUEL JOKE!" Jeongguk screamed as the members rushed to the balcony disbelief covering their faces. Taehyung slowly walked to the edge of the balcony quickly wishing he hadn't. Letting out a blood curdling scream, he never believed he would see his best friend in such a state.

Jeongguk not wasting another second began running at a completely new speed out of the studio and down the stairs as he sprinted around the building till he froze. He seen Jimin, covered in blood as his limbs looked crushed. He was drowning in a puddle of blood. Jeongguk slowly began to step towards his Jimin as he dropped to his knees beside him picking him up and cradling the boy's body. 

"FUCKING CALL SOMEONE! HELP ME! HELP HIM!" Jeongguk screamed as Jin nodded and quickly called the ambulance. "J-Jimin. D-Don't leave me, p-please. Y-You can't l-leave me...I-I i'm s-sorry! s-so so s-sorry! I-I.. I-I need y-you!" Jeongguk cried hugging the boy tightly.