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*~Alexandria Wayne~*
Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
You're whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone
Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?
It's only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table
The walk before the run
The breath before the kiss
And the fear before the flames
Have you ever felt this way?
I watched blankly as the blood dripped from my wrist, into the water, making the once clear bath water turn red. It was as if everything were in slow motion and all I could hear was the sound of my own beating heart, aside from the screams and banging that were coming from the other side of the door.
I just wanted all of this to be over with. The pain, the lies...all of it. Sure, I was taking the easy way out, but who cares? As long as I'm dead and gone...I'll never have to feel this hurt and betrayed ever again.
"ALEX!" I ignore that voice coming from the other side of the door, only because it belonged to the person that hurt me the most. "Please kitten, let me in!" I laugh a little, dragging the blade across my wrist once again, making an even deeper cut. The pain doesn't even phase me. As a matter of fact...it felt good having something that could release my pain and sorrows.
"Alex, please open up!" Those were the pleas from my best friend, Blue, who was sounding like a hysterical mess. I giggled as I laid back in the tub, going under water with my eyes wide open, and staring up at the ceiling. Being underwater drowned out almost everything, but I could still hear the yelling and the banging in the far distance. This was the right thing. I was doing the right thing. The redness of the water started to blur my vision, as it got harder for me to breath. With each second that passed, I could feel my life slowly fading from my body, as death slowly wrapped me in his arms.
Ten
Nine
Eight
Seven
Six
Five...
Out of nowhere, I was pulled up from the water, and dragged out of the bathtub as I drowsily stared up at the face of the man that I loved. He was here, with tears in his eyes, holding on to me as if I were going to fly away at any moment; leaving him just like he left me.
"No, no, no...what have you done? Alex? Baby, stay with me." He said, gently slapping my cheek. Baby? That sounded so weird coming out of his mouth. I was used to nicknames like Kitten, Princess, or Doll Face, but not baby.
"Her cuts are deep! We need to get her to a hospital and fast!" I heard Frost say. My Frosty. He had been there for me from the very beginning and I loved him dearly. He was like the big brother I never wanted, but was blessed with because I needed someone to keep me in line.
"I'm calling the ambulance now, but you need to apply pressure to her wounds!" Blue shrieked. I could feel someone pressing something against my wrist, but I was too focused on this beautiful man that was still holding me against him. I could hear his fast heartbeat beating against me, as I smiled a little.
"Why would you do this to yourself?" I heard him ask. That was the million dollar question wasn't it? Why would I do this to myself? Was it because the one man that I truly loved left me our of nowhere? Or was it because I allowed myself to be blinded by almost every single person that I loved and trusted? Either way...I was in so much pain and instead of inflicting it on other people...I decided to inflict pain on myself.
"The ambulance will be here in a few minutes and Mr. Wayne will meet us at the hospital."
"You called her dad?" Frost scoffed.
"Of course I did! He deserves to know what his daughter did!" Blue snapped at him. I smiled at their constant bickering, slowly closing my eyes, as I felt myself dozing off.
"No! Don't you dare close your eyes, you hear me? You keep them open and you look at me, until help arrives." He said, shaking me awake. I looked back up at him as he gently caressed my face, leaning down and kissing my lips. "Stay with me, Alex."
"I can't..." I grumbled, nodding off once again, only to be shook awake again.
"LOOK AT ME, ALEX! STAY WITH ME!" Even his voice sounded different. Not like his usual raspy, deep voice, that would give me chills whenever he'd whisper something in my ear. Just the thought made me shiver, but then again...maybe it was the coldness I felt, especially since I was laying on the bathroom floor in soaking wet clothes. "I shouldn't have left you, I know, but I had to ensure that you and the baby were safe. Even if I could take it all back, I would've done it all over again, just to make sure that ya'll were safe." His voice starts to become an echo, as I slowly closed my eyes, feeling him shake me. Only this time, I didn't wake up. I blacked out.
- So This First Chapter Is Extremely Sad And Probably Confusing, But I Promise That It Will Make Much More Sense As The Story Goes Along. Also, I Apologize In Advance If This Triggers You Or Is A Situation That You're Dealing With Or You Have Dealt With.
