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*~Alexandria~*
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
Halo Destiny Wayne. That's the name I chose for my precious baby girl, just six months after her father just up and abandoned us out of the blue. I can't say that I'm surprised by his actions, especially now since I've had time to sit around and think, but at the same time...I honestly thought that he would change for me and that we'd become a family. Wishful thinking, huh?
Though it took a really long time and a lot of tears, I was finally over the entire situation, even though my heart still ached from time to time. All I could think about was did I do something wrong? Did he just up and leave because of me? Or maybe he realized that settling down and having a family was something he didn't want, but whatever the case was...it was over and done with.
I jerked awake to the sound of my alarm clock, quickly shutting it off, hoping that it wouldn't wake the baby up. I swear, she would wake up to the sound of a feather hitting the floor, then she'd stay up for hours until I get fed up and bounce her little butt back to sleep. I groaned and climbed out of bed, making my way into the bathroom, as I sat down on the toilet to pee. Between being up all hours of the night and waking up early in the morning for school, I can't even imagine why I'm not in a foul mood. Normally, I'd be in one of the worst moods possible, but lately...I've been content with my hectic scheduled.
After using the bathroom, I stripped out of my clothes and started up the shower, waiting for the water to heat up before I stepped in. After the incident with Joker, my dad insisted that I move back in with him, but I chose to live in the penthouse he bought me instead because let's face it...I needed my own privacy. Of course, he comes to visit every now and then, and he even sends Alfred over every Sunday so that he can clean my house and restock my fridge; making me week long dinners that I could just reheat without the hassle of cooking anything. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate everything that they both are doing for me, but at the same time...I can do all of those things myself. Sure, I'm a college student with literally no time on my hands, plus I have a newborn that requires my undivided attention, but I'm sure I could add cleaning and grocery shopping to my list of things to do. On second thought...nevermind.
"Good morning, best friend." Blue smiled, standing at the stove while she cooked breakfast.
"Good morning." I spoke, sitting at the counter next to Frost. "Morning Frosty."
"Morning Alex. How'd you sleep?" He asked.
"Who says I've been to sleep?" I dropped my face into my hands, sighing heavily, before laying my head down on the counter.
"Baby girl kept you up all night, huh?" Blue said, tapping my head. "Here...I made you some coffee. Freshly brewed, of course, with three sugars and two creams."
"Thank you."
"No problem. So...what's on the schedule for today?"
"I'm staying home today, finishing a ton of homework, and taking care of Halo. Afterwards, I'll probably go to my dad's house for dinner." I told him.
"Oh! Is Alfred making his famous chicken ravioli? If so, count me in!"
"We're going out tonight, remember?" Frost questioned.
"Ohhh right...I completely forgot about our date night." She said, rubbing the back of her neck. I checked the time, realizing that Halo would be up any minute for her morning bottle.
"It's fine...you both go out and have fun." I walked over towards the refrigerator, pulling out an already made bottle of fresh breast milk. I then grabbed a pot and filled it with water, sitting it on the stove and turning the eye on high.
"You're gonna be alright here by yourself?"
"Of course. Besides...I won't really be alone. Halo is here to keep me company." I said. The sound of Halo's crying echoed throughout the house, as I quickly went to retrieve her from her crib.
When I walked into the room, I smiled down at my six month old baby girl as she looked up at me with her teary, bright blue eyes. She looked exactly like the man that I loved and hated with everything in me, which made me sad every time I looked at her, but at the same time...I haven't loved anyone as much as I loved her.
"Hi there, princess." I cooed, lifting her up out of the bed and kissing her cheek. I laid her on the bed and changed her diaper, before I carried her back into the kitchen and sat her in her highchair. "Is her bottle ready?"
"Yes ma'am." Blue answered, pouring the milk on her skin. "Perfect. Not too hot, not too cold. Just the way my sweet God baby likes it." She grabbed the baby and wandered off into the living room, sitting on the couch so she could feed Halo. Blue had been such a blessing and I couldn't thank her enough for everything she's done for me. Not only was she great with Halo, she had gotten the hang of being on her own and I loved how independent and happy she was.
"I can't get over how much she looks like J." Frost voiced. He said that same tired ass line every single time he saw her, and honestly...I was tired of hearing it."
"Yes Frost, I know." I grumbled. He chuckled and stood up, walking over towards the stove and making me a plate. I know he meant well and all, but I was trying to do my best to forget Joker and all of the pain that he's caused me. How could I do that when his former right hand man constantly brings him up?
