Sweetheart. (Patrick Stump Imagines)

letter

I'm writing blind in the dark since I don't want to wake you up and I don't want you to catch me writing this because well it'd ruin the fun in the mysteriousness that I'm trying to build.

Lately, I have been noticing that you only smile and/or laugh when something is funny or something touches your heart, but never because you're happy. I don't know what exactly is going, but I wouldn't want to annoy your guts out from asking you.

Something is wrong. I know it because I've been there where you are at the moment. The most thing I can do is be with you whenever I get the chance and make you feel something out of your numbness. I'm not saying that you're an obligation. You're my passion.

I can't help but admire the soft moonlight hitting your face as if you're in a spotlight. You're so beautiful. I wouldn't get tired of saying that no matter how much you say you're not. You seem serene, like everything's just the way it used to be, but I know tomorrow when you wake, it's going to be hard for you to live another day. But I am thankful for each and every single day that you wake up.

It's hard, I know, but it's gonna get harder as you go on but that's okay. You just can't get stuck. You're here for a reason. You don't have to spend your whole life finding out what it is. You just have to keep going no matter how small your spark is. You won't even notice that you're making it.

Whenever you think of giving up, giving in, don't. Always think why you fought so hard that it almost cost your precious life. Don't give up or surrender just because you can't take it anymore. You don't really can't take it anymore. You can. Giving up is a bribe. I know how much you don't want to cheat ;)

Lastly, as I finish writing this letter and as you finish reading this letter - you've been dirty, you've been clean, you've been high, you've been low, but in the end, you're gonna end up as a person you never thought you could be: a strong one that can bend but never break. It's a factual vision.

So, this is it. Stay alive and stay.....just stay. I'd lose my fuckin head if you take yourself away. I love you, my girl, my love, my crazy amazing best friend, my everything sweet, hot and really nice. I love you.

Always & Forever yours,
Patrick Martin Stumph