The Runaway Groom

TRG ~ 42

TRG ~ XLII

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Freesia

I got way too much time to be this hurt

Somebody help, it's getting worse

What do you do with a broken heart?

Once the light fades, everything is dark

Way too much whiskey in my blood

I feel my body giving up

Can I hold on for another night?

What do I do with all this time..

Nakatulala lang ako sa kawalan habang pinapakinggan ang bagong kanta ng LANY. I'm staring absentmindedly at the blooming flowers in our garden in the mansion. They're blooming so wonderfully and it should help with my heavy heart but it just can't.

I don't even know what to feel right now that he's gone. He left and I'm all alone now.

Paul Klein was right for asking, 'What do you do with a broken heart?'. Do we fix it? But how do we do it? Should we find someone new to ease the pain? But that's rebound and it's bad to make a person as a replacement.. If you're not yet healed, you should not enter another relationship, that's my opinion. You'll only raise another hurt person in the process.

So I really have no clue. I don't know what to do. I think my mind stop functioning. When he left, I just simply lost myself. I can't blame anyone because I know it's my damn fault why he left. Nagpadala ako sa katangahan ko at hindi ko man lang inisip ang mararamdaman niya.

"Sembri un pazzo." ( You look like a fool. )

Sinamaan ko ng tingin si Simone na pinagtatawanan ako sa pag-i-emote ko. He's now sipping my cup of tea! I didn't even notice him coming near me.

"Though I like the song.. But I wonder why do girls tend to emote to sad songs even when they're not broken hearted?"

Agad na nag-init ang ulo ko sa narinig mula sa kanya. How dare he!

"Because we have a damn heart! And we are human and we have damn feelings!" I grimaced while saying those words right through his face! "And what do you care if we, girls, do those things? Do we hurt you by doing that in the process?!"

"Calm down, couz.." Natatawang nilapitan niya ako at kinalma. "I don't mean no harm. Now I have an idea why girls do that so I'm sorry, okay?"

He tried soothing me by massaging my shoulders but I shrugged him off! Nothing would ever make me calm down! He ruined my mood already!

"Don't laugh! And you drank my tea!"

"Okay, sorry, I'll just ask Nana Soleng to give you another cup." I can still hear his chuckle but he tried keeping it to himself.

My angry eyes is still on him. He can't pacify me right now.

"Don't.ever.ruin.a.girl's.emote.time!" I spatted those words right at his face.

"Okaayyy.." He looks confused now. "But I can't get it why you're mad at me. Are you pregnant?"

I paused and got tongue-tied. Suddenly Simone's laughing face turned deadly serious.

"Did he knocked you off?!"

I can see his knuckles turning into a fist.

Kinalampag pa niya ang maliit na wooden table sa harap namin. Napapiksi ako sa ginawa niya. I scorned at him.