The Powers I Possess Are Fatal

Chapter 5

Past 2010

I was meeting Jeremy at 10 so that we could have a catch up and spend the day together as we hadn't spent a lot of time just the two of use lately. Not entirely my fault seeing as he has a girlfriend but I still felt guilty. Everything was going okay with Jeremy he has been very busy with work and Lydia so he didn't really miss me as he didn't have the chance to stop and think about when we last saw each other. So that was a relief as I didn't want him to think I was ignoring him.

He asked how I was doing and about me and James. I said everything was fine and that it was going really well with James. We stayed out together until 7:30pm and then he left as he needed to go to Lydia's. This didn't bother me as I needed to spend some time on my magic and start developing some spells of my own that would be strong enough to defeat the darkness.

I stayed awake until 10 creating spells and only 4 of them are powerful enough to possibly defeat the darkness. These spells are:

1. Unda Lucis and this means a wave of light and this would weaken the darkness and would then give me a long enough chance to cast my second spell.

2. Comminuet autem, et in flammis and this would shatter darkness into flames so that I could make it easier to destroy it all together with my final spell.

3. Interficientes, et justo induisti and this is the final part of my plan as it will destroy the darkness with the lightest of magic.

I feel asleep before I hit the pillow. I have never been a dreamer before but tonight I did. My dream wasn't normal though as it felt really real like I was a wake and not dreaming at all. Like my unconscious was trying to tell me something.

The dream scared me a little bit as it didn't help me in any way to learn more about myself, if anything it just created more and more questions that I needed answered. As a result to the dream I knew soon I would have to talk to James and explain everything, but what more could I say "I'm the most powerful witch and I am going to be the one to stop the darkness." He'll think I'm crazy. Well crazier than I am already. You probably thinking that he already knows because I opened my mind to him but he doesn't not really I only showed him parts of what I knew and believed not the whole story.

Anyway I am going to try and keep this secrete to myself for as long as possible as I am enjoying being with him and not having him hate me. You see James isn't just my boyfriend he is my friend and I lean on him every day to gain more support and strength and I truly believe that if he knew how much power I actually posses he would leave me and call me crazy and I'm not sure I could handle that. Even if he has magic too. I still think he would turn his back on me.

Besides I didn't have the time for any drama Violate wasn't happy about the whole James thing and she has told me that if it interferes with my performance there will be trouble. I know you're thinking pansy she's a ghost for crying out loud, what can she do walk through you. But the weird thing is although she is dead she can communicate and use her magic just like I can. So this suggests to me that even when a witch dies she is not truly dead. Besides she needs me, she needs me to destroy the darkness and I attend her practice sessions. Speaking of this I have to go I have a session with Violate talk to you later.

It's been 6 hours of pure magic training and I am feeling like I have been run over by a bus. Though no stop for the magical, I have to meet up with Jeremy and go to this party of some sort and then I will probably be meeting up with James later. I seriously need to sort out my life as it is just becoming more and more stressful. Let's not forget complicated.

On my way home I tried to teleport so that I would get their faster and have the chance to have a rest but I couldn't seem to do it. I think it was because I was tired and maybe I didn't have enough energy to do so. So it looked like I would have to walk home. On my long and slow journey home I started to think about what would happen if I get really tired when I go up against the darkness and I couldn't use my powers, I would fail and the human race would perish. I needed to be able to use my magic at all times even when I was really tired so I decided to try again. This time harnessing power from any sort of emotion that I was feeling. So that I wouldn't have any boundaries that could stop me from using my powers even when I am dog tired. I created a small fire ball in my hand and this showed that I could access my powers.

I was about 1 mile away from my house when I could hear something behind me and I started to feel brave and strong like nothing could hurt me as only the fear that someone has is what hurts them. So I turned around to find some shadows moving towards me. I could tell instantly that it was the darkness and I needed to destroy this part of its form so that I could weaken it even more so I decided to create a new spell on the spot to prove to myself and Violate. Who I am pretty sure is watching me from the ghostly plane that I have what it takes to destroy anything that comes my way. I changed my stance to make it easier to harness the power that I need and said 'Noctem illam vim luminis' and this translates as ' Power of the light destroy this night'. To my surprise the darkness was gone and all that was left was new flowers that had started to blossom. I couldn't help but feel a sense of pride in myself I had just created a spell on demand and defeated a part of the darkness. I closed my eyes and teleported and found that as long as I believed in myself I would be able to accomplish anything. I had to rush around the house to get ready for the party and I hadn't a clue what I should wear and whose party it was. All I knew was that it was some sort of dress up or fancy dress themed gig. I was always one to go over the top and to make a statement and because of my mood I wanted to be the best one there and make the biggest statement of all. That I am FEARLESS.

My outfit was amazing and very hot if I do say so myself. I was wearing a black and red corset dress with black heeled boots that had red lace around the top of them. I think I looked amazing and that it showed that I was fearless. Although I knew that James would probably have an issue with my choice of clothing but I wasn't going to change. I never cared about what others saw me as and I wasn't going to now even if I am with James. Walking outside my house towards the garden I started to think about how my life has changed and if I could handle all of my new responsibilities. I waited for Jeremy at the end of my garden by the metal gates. Jeremy turned up on a motor-bike at first I thought I was dreaming as Jeremy never had a motor bike but when he took off his helmet it was confirmed Jeremy had a motor-bike. Jeremy's mouth was wide open when he looked at me and to be honest I couldn't understand why. I mean he had seen me in a lot less so it was a little confusing. I mean less he has seen me in my underwear! He closed his mouth and then opened it again as if he was going to say something to me.

Me: Jeremy although it is fun to watch you open and close your mouth like a gold fish I would like to actually attend this party.

Jeremy: Um.....sure I mean wow you look amazing Lily.

Me: Stop it you've seen me in better things than this.

Jeremy: Yeah but you didn't look hot in those like you do at the moment.

Me: Okay stop it... I am fully aware that I am HOT so let's get a move on okay.

Jeremy: Okay you're the boss, get on the bike.

It took 10 minutes to get to the party location and I was glad I wanted to get a drink and have some fun for a change. My life was becoming more and more stressful each passing day and just for one night I wanted and needed to have some fun and some time to myself to just relax and pretend that I was normal.