The Powers I Possess Are Fatal

Chapter 7

Once safely inside I pushed the door shut with my back and gently slid down until I hit the floor. After reaching the floor I just lay their crying. Honestly, if anyone could see me they would think I'd been shot due to the way I was sprawled over the floor.  I couldn't believe it. Surely James wouldn't cheat on me I mean he's changed. I knew he was a player when I met him but he's been so different the last couple of months so why would he. But if I really think about it he was a player and it's like that saying 'once a player, always a player'. How could I have been so stupid? I should have never got mixed up with James. I should have just ignored him and stayed single. I could have protected myself from this, from getting my heart broken.  I mean I have never told him that I loved him but the truth is I think I do. Do you want to know something really stupid? I knew he would ruin me and I knew I shouldn't have let my guard down but I did because I thought he was different and I let myself fall regardless and yet I'm left here broken on the floor in the hallway of my house. My mind is racing and my anger is exhilarating the more I think about what Jeremy has just told me.

   Then it hits me. I have to find out from James himself as I need to for myself and for the sake of my magic, as something like this may distract me and then  jeopardize my strength.

    I haul myself up from the floor and make my way upstairs. I need to get changed before I go to ask James. Then I remember that we are supposed to be throwing a party at his house tonight and yet I need to ask him if he has cheated on me. This just gets better and better. I grab a polka dot dress from my closet and quickly get changed. I grab some cowboy boots and make my own special way back to James's house. So that I will have time to talk to him before people start turning up. 

    I flash into James room within seconds and I have to get myself calmed down and composed before I go in search of James. I flatten my dress and put a fake smile on face and make my way down the stairs in search of James. I find him in the 2nd kitchen (The one on the second floor of the house) filling up the fridge with alcohol.  He jumps and smiles when he sees me standing in the door way. I take a deep silent breath, trying to prepare myself for what I have to say. Just as I go to speak James asked 'Did you sort everything out with Jeremy?' I try to talk to him but I can't every time I go to say something I freeze. I try again and that's  when I manage 'We need to talk.' James's smile fades and he takes a couple of steps towards me and then tries to place one of his hands on the side of my face. I jerk my face away and take a step back. When I'm at a safe distance I open my mouth and say my piece. 'Look James, Jeremy wanted to talk to me about something that happened at the party the other night and I need you to be honest will me even if you know it's going to hurt me. Okay?' James reply's with a simple yes. 'did you before you met up with me....you no um make out with or hook up with anyone else? I need to know so if you did just tell me and I will try to understand I promise but I need to know'. James's face falls and I can tell by his expression that something did happen. He took a step towards me and I put my hands up and told him not to touch me. He stopped in his tracks and started to explain to me what had happened. 'Lily, it's not what you're thinking honestly. I never cheated on you. I mean yes another girl kissed me but I didn't kiss her back. I pushed her away and that's when Jeremy saw me. I swear I would never do anything to hurt you. I LOVE YOU.'I knew what he said and I just ignored it I mean maybe he didn't cheat on me but he still kissed another individual even if he says he pushed her away. I had started to cry at this point and I needed to get away from him and get something to drink.  Anything to try and distract myself and prevent the feeling of my heart being ripped out of my chest. I walked past him grabbed a bottle of vodka and then walked back to my previous spot.  I looked at him in the eye and said 'Do you know what the hardest part of all this. I fell in love with a player and according to you, you love me back. Well I'm sorry but if you love someone you don't go around cheating or whatever you said happened. At least I told you when Leo made a pass at me all you did was let someone else tell me. Well if that's what you do when you're in love, then you can keep it because you have broken me and I can't deal with looking at you right now.' I leave the room and make my way down the stairs. When I finally reach the bottom the doorbell rings I wipe away my tears and quickly redo my makeup and answer the door. I must have let about 30 people in. I was glade as I didn't want to be alone with James. Jeremy texted me when he arrived at the house and I met up with him and his friend outside the front of the house. The conversation went like this.