it's her.

it's true.

I opened the door and walked into my room,
started to wonder why
all my scars just look like you

I know that it's true

so I'm laying awake, 
counting myself to sleep
and it's crazy how we always meet
at any time in any dream,
but I need to rest, cause
as you made me to the best
you left with it too

you know that it's true

now I lose my parts
one by one
and what I've become is
a no name girl in therapy
with anger and anxiety
I fell apart in your arms,
still no one to hold me
I don't need no harms,
it's me I need to be

and baby, did I mention
that I craved for your attention?
thinking of all of my affection,
we were a hand-holding contradiction
still 
I feel your fingertips in
higher definition

but love is a game and I'm the fool
nobody could tell the rules,
still knows the tool

so I opened the door and 
bumped into my collection of
worst cases;
my required phrases 
of falling-too-hard-phases

I like to play 2016
so all that I am is surprised 
that you kissed me,
deep talks in the kitchen,
denying your words 
until I miss them,
under-cover dances
with a way too comfy blanket
and our only chance is
to forget about tomorrow

that's  the truth we both know

I guess one day
I just lost my heart in the sun
that's why I feel so cold
as long as you're gone
then again
as the years passed by
I really did a try in circling,
circling like the moon in 
my own solar system,
still there's no path given
to a woman like me

at the end
I came around and stayed 'til slumber
I told my friends that I just want your number to exchange goodbyes
now I'm guilty, a liar telling lies

yes, we met again to
at last fall for the sheets
that's the least I could give,
dirty talk between my teeth,
rough hands and my love beneath

I just made you want me,
got you how I wanted to
and that's the last and saddest truth

because we never ended up together
I just opened the door
and walked into my room
and I knew
it was and will always be you