it's her.

mirroring my poems.

every time
before I start writing
it's a blank page
which much potential
it's something I'll write
to reach a place in your head

now
I am running through my chapters
I am reading my own poems
and
I never saw myself so differently
it's like
every poem is my own little session
of therapy
I read through
pain and loss
and wanting sex
I read through
poems about heart break,
about my ex
it's the story of my family
and how I lived at home
it's moving into a bigger city,
about how much I've grown
it's trying to catch up
with the horror of my past
and trying to realise
that pain doesn't need to last

until now
now I re-read my own kind of art
and realise
how much I've done to change
I realise
that I ain't the same
anymore
it's so much, so much, so much more

I adore the broken words
the scars inside those lines
I fall for my question marks
and the tiny little signs
of
asking for a touch
and a bit of love
I am proud to
write about the stuff
I always feared to take off

it's pretty personal
but didn't need to wear my name
I felt like a broken soul
but I don't need someone to blame
cause if it wasn't poetry
then I am curing myself

and I am happy to write this
right now
cause there is so much I've been through
and
I never loved myself as much as I do now

this page here
seemed blank as I started to write,
but it already was fulfilled with potential
and I see myself as a blank page too sometimes
so I decided
to fill the stories at myself

no one else will ever leave his letters on my skin again
I've got too much potential
and this blank space is only meant for me

I am mirroring my poems
and my look has changed

this doesn't mean
that you're not allowed to lay your hands on me
just like you did last night
this doesn't mean
that you're not allowed to touch every syllable
and come between the lines
it's just
my poetry, my body
all of this is mine

and I won't give myself away this time