Unexpected Love [Completed]

Chapter 7: The Struggle is Real

Some days you wake up happy and your day turns out to be amazing. Some days you wake up sad and it turns out horrible. Some days you wake up sad, and your day turns into the complete opposite. And sometimes, like today, you wake up excited and ready and your day become trash.

The fact that I wanted to say hi to Avi and have a full conversation with him isn't a bad thing. So why isn't it happening? I get everything happens in its own time but he ignored me today. Fucking dubbed.

We were on our way to gym when I realized I didn't have my gym shirt. My new close friend, Nandini realized at the same time. We ran back to search for our other best friend, Aliyah who had my shirt.

By the time we returned outside, Avi and Nandini's crush, Avi were gone. An opportunity lost.

In gym, we were either playing handball or walking track so obviously Aliyah and I walked track. Avi and Abhi decided to do the same thing.

But for some reason Avi decided to pretend I didn't exist even though we were walking right in front of him. I even turned around and looked at me when he and his friends were laughing at the kids playing handball. But he refused to say a word to me.

So he can go lie to my aunt and say how he talks to me and blah blah blah and actually says hi when his friends aren't around but once he has people around him, he doesn't want them to know he knows a pathetic sophomore.

Screw him.

Nandini said hi to Abhi and he said sup back. Of course he could've had an actual conversation with her but he was trying to get to his real friends, the other seniors.

So she and I have decided to SCREW THEM. We don't need them. Sure Avi is one of the nicest, sweetest kids I know who also happens to be super smart, but it's ok. Sure he's inspired me to be better than what I am, and to be more honest. Sure he makes me smile. Sure I want to hate him even though I can't.

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The next day, we dapped but he didn't smile, he didn't say hey. He didn't seem his normal happy self. Something was off. I don't know if it was because he didn't want to say hi to me. Maybe Avi felt that he had to say hi to me because I was saying hi to him and he didn't want to seem rude. Maybe he felt obligated to acknowledge me because of mandir.

When I texted Shona, she reminded me that he has a lot on his plate. He does so much for mandir, always there to sing or help out. He does his schoolwork, and the shitload of work he's assigned as soon as he gets it just so he has more time for mandir. Maybe he was just stressed about those things. And despite all of that, he still noticed me.

My petty problems are nothing compared to his, compared to my friend's dad being an asshole because he was cheating on her mom. All I complain about is how Avi won't notice me, not noticing how many real world problems my friends and peers and even Avi himself are facing.

God, I'm such a child at times. Im so lost in my innocent little world I forget about others.

Later that day, Nandini had a break down about her unfaithful father. Aliyah and I were there with her the entire time. We managed to help her through it, but there's only so much you can do. Because of my strong faith in God and having a strong family, aside from my mom and all of that bullshit, I get over my "real" problems quickly. I always push through.

So when someone goes through something I do my best to help them because I know I'm strong enough to get through mine. But it's hard seeing someone of the same faith struggling, especially because they don't share that same unshakeable faith in Bhagwan.