Unexpected Love [Completed]

Chapter 25: Hope

We talked all day.

M- I hope u like it! But u and amazing ...never

A- don't be bullying me

M- Its my job lol

A- I see u Meera

M- lol no mandir today?

A- nah u?

M- yea

A- role model lol

We talked all day about the randomest things.

A- see u need better studying technique

M- sometimes I just can't focus

A- study buddy?

M- not allowed lmao

A- really? Thats so weird

M- ik thats my parents

A- music?

M- mom doesn't allow it

A- wow but ur mom seems so nice

M- u don't know her lmao don't tell anyone I said that tho

A- u can trust me dw

M- good

A- my parents were like that too but now they're fine

A- I'm sure they care about u that's y they do what they do

M- yea thats y I'm not gonna fight them. sometimes I just wish I could go out more

A- I only started going out this year so you'll be fine

I got annoyed at how dry our conversation seemed but then he started telling me about school, and how Omar's friend Kabeer was not a good person. Apparently Kabeer and Avi had some drama going on and Avi didn't know why. It had started around the same time I told Kabeer how I liked Avi but I didn't tell Avi that.

I felt kind of weird that Omar was so close to Avi. But Avi told me that most of his closest friends were from mandir not school. That's why I saw him alone sometimes. He told me about his life and I loved it. I loved talking to him all day about everything.

A- this entire time u could've been studying

M- I could've but would I have really studied?

A- nah bc u have no work ethic

M- yes I do...kind of

A- sure

M- don't be mean

A- im just given advice

M- not good advice

A- u were criticizing my priorities

M- you but friends before school and working out shouldn't be one

A- when u trying to catch attention watch how fast ur gonna diet

M- I'm fat and happy

A- I noticed

M- Mean!!!!

A- lol I never said I was nice

M- ur uncool

A- I prefer hot

M- r u blind

A- from staring at u too much

M- ik my beauty is blinding

A- yea sure. that huge nose

M- have u seen urs

A- shut up

M- no u shut up

A- go to sleep I'm tired

M- u go sleep

A- way ahead of u

He actually went to sleep. he didn't even say goodbye, he just went to sleep. he didn't want to say goodbye. Back to school was going to be fun. I hope I got a 100 average or else he was going to laugh at me. God be with me!

And he was not as shy as I thought. He wasn't like I thought he'd be. I thought he'd be like James. But he wasn't. He insulted me as much as I did him. We could talk about school ,family, mandir, and the best part was no one else could understand it all. I mean Vijay could but I know as close as they are, I doubt they talk about all of that.

Avi wanted to talk to me. And being his friend was enough. I could've asked for his number. But it wouldn't have gotten me anywhere. It wouldn't have helped me because I would never be satisfied because I'd start making all the moves and it'd be James all over again. But it wasn't. It wasn't that scary, it wasn't that I-need-to-make-a-good-impression texting either that I used to do with Prem. It wasn't the distant longing with Raj.

It started off like that but suddenly we were becoming friends. It was unexpected and amazing. The unexpected message from him was even better than asking for his number myself. I would've forced a conversation. It would've been awkward. But when you get a text from your crush out of the blue, when they are suddenly talking to you like you're good friends, and it feels right...there's nothing you need to worry about.

I just don't want to screw this up. I don't want him to do what Prem did. I want to be happy for once. I want to feel wanted. I want to think only good things about him. I want to hold onto the respect and admiration I have for him.

And so far I have. I never realized how similar we really are and how much I've wanted to talk to someone who understands it all. It's refreshing and makes me feel safe in a way. I don't know how to explain it.

I just don't want this to be one-sided again. too many times do I fall deeper. I'm scared. Too many things run through my head. He's become so unattainable in my head that actually getting to know him is almost foreign to me. I've never really had a serious one-on-one conversation with him. We've always just joked around. But sitting there texting him made everything so much more real.

I'm so scared and I don't know why. I don't want to get hurt. I don't want to be embarrassed. My head tells me to run and hide and just admire him from afar but my heart tells me to just wait. I feel fine when I actually talk to him but now when I'm not the fear sets in.