Unexpected Love [Completed]

Chapter 19: What is wrong with me

So school started again. I walked to class and I saw Damon walk out of my first period class room. I said hi to him and he said hi back. he walked away.

I stood there, heart thumping, trying to remember how to breathe.

The reaction was instant. Regret. Guilt. Anger. Something else.

I refused to acknowledge how I felt for him. I needed to get him out of my head. So delicious looking. Blue looks good on him.

Stop. Meera. Don't

I went into class and told Sarah some of what was happening. Of course she didn't know the full story. No one would. No one needed to know

I spent the morning thinking about him. About regretting my decision.

When I saw him in English he didn't even do our handshake. He didn't hug me. He didn't touch me. He barely looked at me.

Ouch.

At lunch, he didn't even come to my table. He stayed with his friends. He always came over. Always.

Ouch.

Eighth period came. And as I walked to class, Nandini found me. And I told her everything. I left for the bathroom and spent half an hour telling her everything.

As I did, he texted me.

D- yo

M- I needed to tell u smth

D- face to face?

M- doesn't matter. I wanna I cancel

D- ik

M- uncancel* Autocorrect is dumb

D- I was gonna cancel bc I wanna go for Lana

M- oh

D- yea

M- u like her?

D- I'm not completely sure yet

M- u sure u wanna cancel everything

D- yea

M- ok congrats

Nandini saw my crestfallen face. It hurt. But I sucked it up and went to class.

He does service for Ms. Ardon. So when he walked into trig, he did our handshake, said wassup Meera, and went to the back. I was shocked he was good with me again. It was also infuriating. I had always been right. He'd go for his best friend because everyone told him to. He was doubting himself because of everyone. And I'd never get my chance. I was rejected before I even tried. But so goes my love life

I went to the bathroom, and didn't realize he'd left not too long before me. We walked the halls together, when he started trying to push me back to class. I told him, "No I don't want to go back."

He pushed me from behind. His hands on my waist. Don't Meera DONT

Then we walked the other way, because he finally let go of me. But then we ended up on the staircase. The same one James and I used to go to. The dreams I fantasized about James pushing me against the wall and kissing me... well, the dream came true, just with a different guy.

His hands on my hips. His body on mine. His face tilted down to mine.

His lips were so soft. But before my brain registered to kiss back, he pulled away. His hand ended up on my ass more than once. I rolled my eyes and he let go. This idiot smacked my ass as we walked back up.

I turned and said, "What is your obsession with my ass?"

He put his hand on my chin and said, "Why not?"

"There's nothing there."

He laughed and we simply walked back to class. And of course the door was locked.

I knocked on it. Someone saw but didn't get up. My entire table could see but no one got up. Damon pushed me out of the way and knocked. I pushed him back and suddenly we were fighting. Eventually someone opened the door, but I think everyone suspected something. At least my friends did.

Nate noticed the change automatically. He laughed aloud when I told him. And then we pretended to be talking about something else because Damon didn't know I told anyone. I went and told Nandini and her face lit up like a Christmas tree.

Maybe this was the right thing.

I know my family would never approve. But this is new. New year, new me.

I'd fight feelings as much as possible. I'd support his crush on Lana. I'd be his side. But for a little while, I'll be with a guy who does something for once! Who makes me feel something.

The heartbreak will come. And when it does I'll take it. Because if he and Lana truly like each other, I won't go in between. I won't.