Forever, Never Lasts

Chapter 3 You Deserve Better

      Last night I made sure to go to bed early, so I wouldn't be late for school. I spent a little extra time on myself before I left. Mom was already gone to work, when I woke up so I didn't get asked about why I was up so early. I couldn't help getting excited as the school came into sight, I never liked school let along being happy I'm going. Pulling in the parking lot I couldn't help to search for a beautiful familiar face, and I'm not talking about RIley. When I spotted him his back was to me while he was talking to a group of girls that I remembered were on the schools cheer squad. I felt like something hit me like a mack truck, it felt like I just got kicked in the gut and I was trying not to cry. I don't know why I'm getting so upset over this, it's not like we were a thing or something. I just met the guy for crying out loud!  I knew I wasn't his type but actually facing that it proves how right I was.                                                                                                      Getting out of my car I acted like I didn't see him, I just kept looking for Riley she should be here by now. Me: Wru? when I didn't get a reply I stuffed my phone in my pocket as I entered the school. Heading to my locker, I grabbed the stuff that I would need for my first period when my phone buzzed. It wasn't who I expected it to be Jason: Hey to you to...? I didn't know how to reply I mean didn't I make it obvious I didn't wanna talk? Me: Your here? I didn't see you I tried not to be mean about it but why would I say hey to you if your with a group of girls who hate me? Jason: Really? I didn't know it was possible not to see someone who is standing right beside you? Confuesed I looked to my right towards the door and I didn't see him, thinking he was bluffing I slammed my locker door heading to the right to my homeroom. I thought I was going to jump out of my skin when I seen him, my face immidiately heated up just at the sight of him. He was wearing a blue and black plaid shirt with dark jeans, his hair was messy but somehow he pulled it off. He was leaning against the locker to the right of mine with his arms and feet crossed, with an amused grin on his face. I smaked his arm "Don't sneak up on me like that!" I said gasping, while clutching my chest. He just started laughing "Sorry, so why didn't you say hey earlier? you had to'ev seen me I was in the front of the school" He stated with a raised eyebrow. " I thought I made it clear that I didn't see you, I was looking for my friend Riley" I replied with a bored expression. Speaking of my friend I seen her walking into the school with Daniel's arm wrapped around her shoulder's laughing at something he said she looked between me and Jason and gave me a thumbs up. Thankfully Jason's back was to her I really wish she would just see how different we are there is nothing there. "Well I was looking for you" he implied. I didn't notice the laugh that came out of my mouth when he said that " It sure looked like you were you had your back to me with your, fan club around" the words just came out of my mouth so fast I couldn't stop them blushing I turned and walked towards Riley and Daniel. " I thought you said you didn't see me?" He called after me, I shrugged "Didn't want to interrupt your little get together" I stated. His face looked confuesed and the it was like a light bulb went off and he grinned a knowing smile. I quirked and eyebrow at his expression "What?" I asked impatiently. "I think someone was jealous" He smiled " Why would I be jealous, actually I'm happy for you now you know more people, you deserve better than me, I just met you" I said with a laugh "I'm used to dissappointment" I stated firmly and walked to my class with RIley. I didn't even look back there was no need to I knew where I stood, I knew since day one. "What was that about" Riley asked with concern. I guess my face showed more dissappointment then I wanted it to. "Nothing, just a confirmation" I shrugged as if I didn't care.  She must've knew not to press any further because all she did was nod.                                                                                                      Homeroom was boring, just as I expected it to be. Riley kept sending me questioning looks from across the room. I must have been dazing off, I just couldn't help it I couldn't get him out of my mind. The bell rang bringing me out of my thoughts, grabbing my stuff I headed to my next class not even bothering to go to my locker or wait on Riley. I just didn't want to talk about anything right now. I knew Riley didn't have 2nd period with me which I was relieved about.                                                                                             Walking into my history class, there he was the one person I didn't want to look at, to talk to, and certainly not do a project with Jason James was sitting in the seat to the right of where I sat yesterday. the class was filling up and I knew the tardy bell was about to ring so I just sat down in my normal seat. "Are we still on after school? Jason asked. "Yea, sure" I answered awkwardly, He just nodded "Do you want to ride with me there and then come back to pick up your car?" "Yea, I mean that sounds ok with me if it's fine with you" I replied shyly. "Of course it's ok with me, silly if it wasn't I wouldn't have asked you in the first place" He said with another heart warming smile. I didn't respond not wanting to embarrass myself even more then I already had.                                                                                                                                   When school was finally out as I headed toward my locker when I txted mom and told her not to freak when I didn't come home, I told her I would be home later on that night that I was working on a project with a friend from school. After getting my bookbag and what I had for homework I closed my locker door, this time it didn't scare me to see Jason leaning against the same locker he had earlier with all his stuff as well. His smile dropped when he knew he didn't scare me. I turned to him with a quirked eyebrow "You ready to go?" he asked  I just nodded in response.                                                                                There was a comfortable silence when we were walking toward his truck. "Sorry if it's messy" He apologized I just shrugged not really feeling the need to talk just in case I make myself sound stupid again. "You don't talk much do you?" he asked, while cranking the car. I put on my seatbelt and responded "I guess I don't, I don't know what to really say" I stated shrugging "Well, lets talk about you" he suggested "There's nothing special about me" I stated simply. " Oh, come on everyone is special" he said grinning. He looked at me and we made eye contact, I felt my heart flutter why is he so perfect? "How bout we talk about you? Why did you move from Canada?" I said in attempt to change the subject. "No, no, non don't try to change the subject now" he said. " I don't really know what to tell you." I stated truthfully, there really isn't much about me I'm a nobody who doesn't believe that love last's. "Fine, we will start easy then... Whats's your favorite color?" he shrugged. "Purple" I said in a bored tone. "Purple is cool it's one of my favorite colors as well."he replied smiling  "What do you do for fun?" he asked  "I love to paint and drawl, I'm not very good but somehow it soothes me" he smiled "That is really cool, I'd like to see some of your work one day" "I don't like to show people, I don't take well to criticism" I replied truthfully. We were parked by this time, he turned to look at me " I would never critisize you or anything you do." he said in a serious tone. His eyes didn't leave mine and I couldn't help but keep his gaze it was like I was paralyzed or something. I couldn't speak and definately couldn't think. His eyes traveled to my lips and he started to lean in, while I started to panic. It's been so long since I kissed a guy, what if I'm not good. I couldn't help but lean in as well it's like we were magnets or something. Right when our lips were about to touch my phone started to ring. It was Riley probaly freaking out since I didn't wait on her. I closed my eyes and let out a long breath before pulling away from him. "Hello?" I asked into the phone. "Where the hell was you, I was looking for you everywhere?!?" she pratically screamed in my ear. " I'm with Jason discussing the project remember?"  I stated in a duh tone " Oh yea sorry I forgot" she said quietly  I just rolled my eyes "Anything else you need?" "No I'll just talk to you later" she most likely was blushing, thinking she interrupted something "Ok bye" I said ending the conversation.                                                                                "Well that was fun" I said trying to ease the tension. He just looked at me, my breath caught in my throat when all of a sudden he crashed his lip to mine. If I said the kiss was amazing that would be an understatement, His soft lips on mine was perfect. I started to kiss him back wrapping my arms around him trying to bring him as close as possible. Running my fingers through his soft thick hair I couldn't stop the moan that escaped my lips as he trailed his tongue along my bottom lip asking for permission, I opened my mouth and let him take charge. I've never been kissed with such passion not even with my ex.          When we both got out of breath I pulled away, not knowing what to say. I was waiting on him to say how bad I was but I was shocked when he looked at me "I've been wanting to do that from the moment I met you" His voice was so serious I knew he wasn't joking. His eyes were soft and filled with lust, "Why me?" I whispered. "Because your different from any girl I've met, your so beautiful and innocent. I can't stop thinking about you, I know I just met you but I can't help but like you" He stated truthfully he looked as if his was embaressed did he really think I didn't like him back?. I was so shocked, no one has ever said something like that to me. He doesn't need someone like me, I'm a nobody. He's perfect and I'm average anything but beautiful. Ray you don't know him he could just be trying to get you in bed like Aiden remember all the sweet stuff he said to you and then when you told him you weren't ready he left you. I frowned at the memory, would Jason really do something like that? A tear escaped my eye I can't get hurt, Love never last Ray Forever never lasts. "Oh no why are you crying, I'm sorry I didn't mean....." I cut him off before he could finish "Is this some kind of a joke? I'm not like other girls who give it up to a guy they just met, I'm not beautiful or special and I can't let you hurt me!!!" I stated firmly. I can't believe I'm showing him my weakness. "First this isn't a joke that's sick, and I know your not like other girls you're way better and I did used to use and hurt alot of girls, but I can't hurt you I feel very protective of you and  I don't know why" He said furrowing his eyebrows in confusion. I couldn't reply, I didn't know what to say to that and little did I know that my wall was slowing coming down at that very moment. I can't explain it but I trust him. I trust Jason James and that was all I know. He pulled me in to him and we just sat there for a good 20 miniute's before we went inside. We laughed and talked about the project. the whole time the waitress tried to flirt with him but he was looking at me and just me.