Forever, Never Lasts

Chapter 16

Authors Note 

Hey guys sorry I took forever to update I just been confused on where to go with this chapter, also I've been locked down on school. I will try to update as much as possible! VOTE and COMMENT

       Though we both knew no one would walk in due to the fact that my mother was asleep we both wanted our first time together to be special, especially with my circumstances. His lips were so warm and soft on my lips he would occasionally travel them down my neck nipping at my certain sweet spots. I wanted him as close as possible, even if I could just get inside of him it wouldn't be close enough. I know it sounds unrealistic but I couldn't help it and at this point I didn't care how it sounded. I never wanted to be in love due to the fact that it seems as if love never works or last, but I had a gut feeling that this would be forever. 

       I loved how he held me like I was the most fragile thing in the world, like if he didn't touch me I would dissapear. I loved this even if we never kissed just to have him hold me just to show me how much I meant to him was the best feeling and I never wanted it to end. He pulled me on top of him so now I was straddling him, now I was in charge. I smirked as the thought of me being in charge played through in my mind it was my turn to play. I kissed gently down his neck to his abdomen gently nipping at his smoothe skin making him moan. He knew I wasn't going to do anything to drastic, one because of I've never done anything like this before and I wanted it to be great, second because the only Guy I've seen was my rapist and the thought made me cringe. Jason must've notice me stiffen at the thought " Baby, we can take this one step at a time, we got forever" he stated with a warm smile. This is why I loved this guy with every fiber in my body, even though he was in the mood he put his feelings aside for me. Yea, it gave me a good piece of mind a voice in the back of my mind kept telling me how he deserved so much better than what I could give, he needed a girl who was ready to be with him intimatly and fufill his needs. "Forever, Never Lasts" I replied with a frown trying to push the negative thoughts away from my head. He pulled me off of his lap, so I was now beside him with his arm snaked around my waist. I layed my head on his shoulder with a deep sigh "Forever, may not last but when I'm with you everything lasts" he spoke softly looking down at me so that now our eyes met, looking at the way his eyes shined I knew he ment every word he said. It was like he was letting me see how he felt about me with just one look and I fell more in love with him, that I didn't think was possible.

       Jason didn't stay the night I woke up to a piece of paper and of course my alarm clock. I start back school today and I didn't really want to think about how it would play out. I read the note that was definatly written by Jason and his sloppy but trying not to be hand writing. My Love, I didn't think your mom would be ok walking in with me in your bed so I left shortly after you fell asleep on me (by the way I love how my name was on repeat in your dreams) I hate leaving you without a proper goodbye but I didn't want to wake you. I thought it would be more special for you to wake up to a note instead of a txt I'm going with the old fashion way. Well baby I hope you had a peaceful night wish I could have stayed! See you at school I love you so much! xoxo -Jason I smiled at the letter he was so thoughtful, I still couldn't believe he was all mine. Yes, I blushed a bit when he mentioned how I said his name constantly in my sleep, that was so embaressing. 

      I finally got out of bed and did my usual morning routine, god I already miss my bed and the soft sheets. My eyes kept getting heavy as I thought about the relaxation of my big fluffy bed. Ok Ray this is ridiculous you're day dreaming about your bed very mature. I made my way downstairs into the kitchen to see mom hadn't left for work yet. She handed me a cup of coffee she knew I would need it to help me stay awake god bless mothers and their intuitions. "Thanks" I muttered before taking a sip at the hot liquid. She nodded in response before sitting in the chair adjacent from me "So why haven't you left for work?" I asked as I sipped at my coffee again "I decided I would wait for you to get out of bed, I thought you would need a little boost" she smiled warmly at me. I nodded at her response before getting up to kiss her cheek "I love you mom" I said as I got my things for school. "I love you sweetie, have a good day" she replied as I headed out the door.