Forever, Never Lasts

Chapter 17

       The cold wind brushed against my bones, with a rush like none other. The more I thought about the night before the more my head begin to spin at the thought of closeness I was willing to share with him. Walking into school that morning was hell. Everywhere I looked was someone sending me sympathetic glares, I kept telling myself that it was just a normal day, but oh how wrong I was. Riley came to me with an urgency to her walk as well as her face. "Bathroom now" she whispered in a demanding voice. I know its crazy to think, but since the night at the party public bathrooms gave me the creeps. Riley looked under the stalls as we entered, when seeing that no one was the besides us, gave her the satisfaction to lockthe door. Anticipation filled my mood being locked in a bathroom again but now knowing who I was with and that I was safe brought a peace over me. I looked at Riley waiting on her to explain what was going on. Just when I was about to ask what was her deal as well as everyone elses she spoke the three words I never expected. "Ray, Aidens back" that was all it took I felt my back touch the wall as I slid to the floor putting my head between my knees "Ray.....calm..down" Riley said in a shaky voice as much as i wish she could understand and feel what I was feeling I knew that would never happen .

       We walked into the hall after I got myself together, but that didn't stop the terrible thoughts as well as the memories of the guy I thought I loved. "Everythings going to be ok, I'll be right beside you" she spoke sincerly. No matter how hard I tried to control it I was breaking inside, feeling myself turning back to the broken Ray as Aidens last words rang into my mind before he left. At the time I didn't want him to leave me I wanted him to come back to me to say he didn't mean it, to say he still loved me. But, as of now I hated him for making me feel that way for putting me through that, I wanted him gone. 

    Thankfully we made it to first period without seeing him in the hall, which I was greatful. It killed me that Jason didn't have this period with me but I had my sister. My breath caught as me and Riley went into the classroom, there he was. He was just as beautiful if not more than the last time I saw him, when he left me in my drive way claiming he fell out of love with me, when he said I was a worthless whore. I wasn't going to be that  weak, broken girl again. He met my gaze with his mouth agape, no I wont be that girl again I'll be the one to show him what he left behind. I smirked at his expression having a surge of confidence course through my body, he'll be the one looking like a dumb ass.  

      Finally class was over, time to meet with Jason. It's as if we are magnets and I can sense his body wave as if we have to be together at all times. Riley stayed true to her word she stayed beside me, gathering our books I tried to keep my gaze down at least until I got out the door. I felt a hand grab mine as me and Riles headed for the door. "Journey" a familiar masculine voice echoed in my ears. I knew it was Aiden, but something was different the touch that used to cause my stomach to drop, caused me to cringe with disgust and I knew why because it wasn't Jasons. I turned around to face him with Riley still by my side shooting him death glares, she never liked him while we were together but after he hurt me that dislike she had for him turned into pure hate. "What" I stated words dripping like venomn. I wasn't the same Journey he left helpless and broken, no I was the new and improved Ray and he was definatly take aback when he heard my response. Shock was evident in his  beautiful face. Did he really think I would forgive him and take him back? 

        I turned on my heels leaving Aiden in the same spot, Jason was across the hall in plain view for Aiden to see. "Hey baby" I said kissing him hard, I could feel Aidens stare as I pulled away from the new man I loved. "Who was that guy you were talking to?" he asked quirking an eyebrow making him even more sexy. "I'll tell you later lets get to class" I said grabbing his hand. 

    *Authors Note* 

Hey guys I feel terrible for not updating sooner, I've had alot going on with family issues! I hope ya'll enjoy this chapter it shows a whole new version of Ray! Please continue to read and stick with me through the rest of the book! COMMENT and VOTE