Forever, Never Lasts

Chapter 19 Shocked

         The next morning I woke in a daze. Flashbacks of the night before were burned in my head, it was so perfect yet so sweet. But for some reason I felt as if I had done something wrong. I shook my head to keep the bad thoughts out, I wasn't going to let my thoughts get the best of me. I finally got the energy to climb out of bed and bring my toiletries to the bathroom and get ready for school. I decided to do a ponytail with my bangs to the side which I thought was super cute. When I finally got ready, I went downstairs to get an apple and head off to school. Something was strange...Jason didn't message me like he normally does in the morning. I decided that he may have forgot, so I sent him a quick txt before heading off to school. Ray: Goodmorning baby I hope u slept good, see ya at school :) When he didn't reply I decided to shrug it off and head to school.

When I got to the school's parking lot I noticed Riley and Daniel outside with a group of people, apparently waiting for class to start. As I drew near to them Riley came up and hugged me like she hadn't seen me in ages. Things have gotten a lot better in our relationship, it seemed as though us being half sisters has broughten us closer in our friendship. I was debating on telling her about what had happened the night before between Jason and I. My thoughts were interrupted as someone lazily threw their arm around my shoulders. My initial reflect was to shrug it off, but it wasn't until I saw who it was that I relaxed. Jason stood behind me in a blue plaid American Eagle shirt, blue jeans and glasses. I could tell just by looking at him that something was off. Fear immediately caught in my throat I knew something bad was about to happen.

I tried not to think about it through school but it was as though I couldn't help it the sight of him was burned into my eyes. I was at my locker when I felt his familiar presence standing close to me. I don't understand what could be wrong after spending that amazing night together, for him to be acting so different baffled me. "Hey baby, hows your day going?" He asked slowly as though he were in a daze. I didn't even answer his question I just got straight to it, "How come you didn't txt me this morning? and why are you acting so weird?"

"How am I acting weird? I'm sorry I didn't message you, I was...busy" He replied while letting out a deep breath.

"Busy?!? To busy to message you own girlfriend, especially after last night?!?" I scoffed now I was getting pissed and besides that my feelings were hurt. I know most people would think it was petty, but he's never ever been this way. I didn't even give him a chance to respond before I turned on my heels and stomped away. I didn't even look back and he didn't try to catch me, I need to get to the bottom of this and I know just who can help me.

School finally let out and I knew I had to find Riley. I saw her making her way to her car when I called out her name. "Riley!!!" I yelled she and everyone in the parking lot turned and looked at me as if I just grew three heads. She must have been able to tell something was wrong because she said "Who do I have to kill?" I couldn't help but grin at her "I don't need anyone murdered just yet, but I do need your help. Meet me at my house I got alot to tell you." I responded I knew she could sense the worry in my voice, I just don't know how to tell her. "Ok I'll see you there. Jason is coming up behind you by the way" She whispered as she got in her car and drove in the direction of my house. While my heart sank to my stomach and turned around, I was met with Jason's lips on mine out of the blue. It felt like heaven, my head started to spin as our lips moved in sync. It was almost as if a light bulb went off and I remembered what had went on earlier that day and how he treated me. As I pulled away he kept pulling me closer "Ja-so-n" I said breathless trying to break free but it was near impossible. All of a sudden out of the blue Jason was ripped away from me. All I seen was Aiden and Jason going at it "STOP!! STOP!! STOP!!! Yall are going to hurt one another" I screamed but it was as though they were deaf so I put myself in between them and that's when the whole left side of my face started stinging and tears formed in my eyes. Jason actually hit me he looked as though he was in shock. I ran to my car not looking back I had to get out of here. I got in my car and locked the doors and just as I started to pull off Jason started running beside my car "Baby please I'm so sorry I didn't know!" he cried out. But by this time I was going so fast he couldn't keep up. I looked in my rearview mirror and say him running to his car, and Aiden was following me. Oh god I can't go home I knew where I had to go it was one place on Riley knew about. I finally lost them both and as soon as I got there I called Riley "You do realize there are two hot guys at your doorstep fighting over you right?" Riley spoke before I could even say Hey. "I know this get to Dad's quick don't tell them you're leaving or where I'm at just get here." I said hurriedly "I gotcha, by the way you owe me one" she replied. I didn't reply back I just hung up. I went up the stairs and rang the doorbell before Dad could respond I was in his house "Riley's coming too I just need to get away" I breathed  "That's fine with me sweetheart." He said. Next thing I know I hear gravel flying up. Riley rushed in grabbing my hand and leading us upstairs "Hey dad" she said quickly but I didn't get to hear his response because we were already upstairs.

Riley's face was in awe as I told her about the night before, she was definitely shocked and upset when she found out what happened when she left the school she even made the remark she wish she could've seen it to see who won. I didn't want to know who won heck I didn't even want them to fight. after I finished telling her what all happened we kissed dad goodbye and went back to my house. I didn't want to go I would have much rathered went and stayed at Riley's but I knew that my Mom wouldn't let that fly on a school night, sisters or not. When I arrived at my house I was relieved that neither of the guys were there, mom wasn't home either. Which meant I had the house to myself, and a relaxing bath in my future.

As I made my way up to my room I threw my stuff on my desk, if it hadn't been such a rough day I would have most likely put everything in it's exact place, but today I didn't really care. I turned on the faucet and lit my candles, I couldn't wait to sink into the hot bubbles. My thoughts drifted away as I laid in the tub and let the water consume my body. My body was so relaxed I could barely make it out of the tub. I didn't even bother with clothes I just wrapped myself in my robe and laid across my bed. I heard someone clear their throat and in that moment my relaxation left and fear was replaced. I knew it couldn't be my mom because she was working a 12 tonight. My fears were met when I saw it was Jason in the corner of my room. "What the hell are you doing here, you scared me to death!" I hissed at him how dare he come into my house and my room without my permission. He didn't respond he just started walking towards me I immediately shied away from him which caused him to stop in his tracks. "Did I do that?" he asked with so much pain and regret in his voice i almost felt sorry for him. I just nodded in response, "How could I have been so stupid?" He said angrily I flinched at his voice. Who is this person, this isn't the person who I fell in love with, the one who always made me feel safe. This person is angry and I don't know what I done to make him lash out at me like this. "Please forgive me baby, I didn't mean to hurt you. You know I would never hurt you in a million years." He said with tear filled eyes "I want you to explain to me why u were so busy this morning and acting different" I demanded. He looked down as though he was ashamed at something he had done. I never would have thought the next words out of his mouth "I got drunk" He explained. I didn't answer I wanted him to finish "I got wasted because after last night I realized how much I've changed, If we would've met back in Canada you wouldn't have thrown me a second glance. I was a player and a user I never knew I could feel the way I do for you. I'm everything you hate and I was your first." He spoke disappointedly he kept staring at the ground he wouldn't meet my gaze. I was in shock, I didn't even know him at all, but it was because I never asked. I did something that I'll probably regret later, I grabbed his face and made him meet my eyes "You're right, you were everything I hate but now you everything I love, we all have flaws" I whispered as I crushed my lips to his. I didn't give him time to object I kissed him with all I had. All I could think was how much he meant to me through everything!