Forever, Never Lasts

Chapter 7 Letting Go

         I didn't know what to see or how to act when we parted breathlessly. "What do you mean you want to be more?" I asked curiously I needed to know the truth of what he was feeling and what he meant. "Ray, from the moment I met you even if I knocked you down I couldn't stop thinking about you, I noticed how you push everyone away and I might not know the reason or why you're so scared to let people in. But I know that I could never hurt you" he stated in a serious tone. Could this be true? would he never hurt me? I kept arguing with myself, part of me wanted to take the chance and part of me didn't want to be the one hurt in the end. "I don't know why I'm doing this but yes I will go on the date with you" I smiled warmily at him, he looked shocked at my response which worried me, what if he doesn't want to go on a date now? Oh no. "Hey don't you even start questioning if I changed my mind about you" he stated, now I was the one with the shocked expression. It shocked me to think that he could read my mind, but then I realized how stupid I was being. We arn't in a vampire movie, amusing myself at the thought of Jason being a vampire. "How did you know that?" I asked "Well Ray I know alot about the way you think you give to much away with your facial expressions" he laughed which only made me blushed. Great, now he know's how much I battle with my self. I didn't reply back to him so he started "What do you wanna do?" he asked. Furrowing my eyebrows at him in confusion, What was he referring to? "What?" I asked in a dumb tone. "For our first date what do wanna do? he asked in a more detailed manner. "Oh I don't really know, I don't ever go on dates" I mumbled the last part not wanting to sound lame. He looked suprised which made me blush knowing that he had in fact heard the one part that I didn't want him to. "I got an idea" he suggested but he wouldn't tell me where we were going. Normally not knowing where a guy I barely knew was taking me would have scared me half to death, but for some reason I trusted him.  

     The parking lot was empty by the time we left it was 4:00 so I was heading home to get ready for my date at 7:00. When I reached my house I noticed my mom's car in the drive way, she's home from work early. She normally get's off at 6 and it takes 30 minutes from our house to her job. I went through the door and into the kitchen to see my mom washing dishes. "Hey, mom can I talk to you?" I asked nervous at what her reaction might be. "Yea, of course" she replied while drying of her hands in the process of sitting across from me."I have a date tonight at 7...with a friend of mine" I said shyly she smiled before giving me a hug. "Just a friend aye?" she said with a quirked eyebrow, god she know's me so well. Not wanting to interrupt Riley's date I just asked my mom to help me get ready since all I had was her and Riley. Mom was thrilled by the idea of helping me get ready for the first date I've had in a long time. She didn't ask much about him I think she already knew who it was. When I checked the time it was 6:45, I also had a message from Jason. I was terrified to open it, would he cancel on mne? Finally after about 5 minutes of racking my brain I finally had the courage to open it Jason: Hey beautiful, I'll be there in 10 minutes ;) Oh no that ment he would be here in 5 minutes, I started to hyperventilate. Mom was trying to calm me down but it wasn't helping. The door bell ringing is what interrupted my little nervous session, I told my mom to go answer the door for me while I did some finishing up on my makeup.

      It took all the courage I had to walk down the stair, I heard voice's coming from the kitchen area. I took a big breathe before walking in the kitchen. They were in the middle of a conversation Jason had his back to me. I interrupted, "Hey are you ready to go" I said sweetly. Mom left the room saying she was tired and that she had to be up early for work. Jason turned to face me his eyes trailed up and down my body, I felt a little awkward standing there while his eyes undressed me. I cleared my throat causing his eyes to meet mine "You look beautiful" he stated in awe of my appearance. I was wearing a brown and white lace shirt with ripped faded blue jeans and my cowboy boots, My hair was curled down my shoulder's and I had on light makeup. "Thank you, you like nice yourself" I replied taking in his rugged appearance, he was wearing a green flannel button up making his eye's pop, with dark jeans and brown boots. Though I looked at his body my eyes stayed on his face. He held out his hand gesturing for me to take it, I placed my hand in his I tried to ignore the slight tingle that coursed it's way through my body. "You ready?" he asked "Ready as I'll ever be" I tried to sound happy and I was but a part of me was scared. "Don't worry you'll have the best time of your life" he said enthusiastically.

    We headed out the door, the cool breeze swept my face as I looked up at the starry night. "It's so beautiful" I whispered as he opened his door for me "Thanks" I muttered getting in the truck. I wasn't expecting him to be so gentelmen like, no one's ever treated me like this before. "So where are we going?" I asked in curiosity. "That's for me to know and you to find out" he smirked I just nodded enjoying the silence. We pulled up to a wooded area lit up with candles and the stars. There was a blanket on the ground and a basket which I assumed had food in it. It was so beautiful, but a part of me was nervous of how this night was going to go. He must've seen my facial expression because he interrupted my thoughts "Just a romantic dinner, nothing you don't want it to be" he stated in all seriousness. "It's beautiful" I replied as we headed down on the blanket. After we ate, we laid down on our backs looking at the stars dancing in the night. "So how's the date so far" he asked "I've never had someone make me feel so special" I said truthfully, turning to face him. "I'm just treating you the way you deserve to be treated" he replied leaning in capturing my lips. I pulled him closer to me which caused him to roll on top of me we kissed with so much hunger it felt as if my insides were about to explode. He started to kiss down my neck causing me to moan in pleasure. The feel of his lips on me the way he barley nipped at the skin on the base of my neck. It was amazing, he trailed his hand down my leg's wrapping them around his waist. My head was spining, I might not be able to trust him but I know that if this keep's up I'm going to fall in love with him. I need to be with him no matter what the cost. I'm just letting go. We parted after we couldn't breathe anymore, even though we both wanted things to go further we knew that we wern't ready for anything like that just yet. 

      On the way home we sang and laughed it was like something you would see out of a Romance movie. I havn't been so happy in a long time, and if I'm being honest it terrified me. I would risk getting hurt in the end to be like this forever! Once we got to my driveway, he walked me to my doorstep kissing me with just as much passion as before. I was on cloud 9, I watched his truck drive off into the night before turning towards the door and heading up to my room, careful not to wake my mom up. After getting ready for bed I checked my phone Jason: I had the best time tonight beautiful, your amazing I smiled at the text before replying Me: I did to!...gtg to bed goodnight I didn't wait for a reply I just turned over and closed my eyes and fell into a dreamless sleep