angst !! but also fluff ,,,, tw for suicidal stuff,,, i sorry
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(MICHAELS POV)
I sat in front of the burning fireplace, in darkness. Tears stained my tanned cheeks, the crackle of the fire was the only thing filling my hears. Besides me sniffling every once and a while, and the faint rain and thunder outside. Jeremy had completely abandoned me for Christine. I helped him get rid of the SQUIP, and when he got together with Christine, he lost all contact with me. He never texted me, nor talked to me at school. I threw another birthday card from Jeremy into the fireplace, watching it burn and cripple into ashes. I somewhat hated Christine for what she has done to me and Jeremys relationship, she was apparently innocent in everybody else's eyes, I envied her for how she tricked everybody into her lost puppy routine. She always texted me mean things, about how Jeremy is her's and hated me, and never wanted to see me again. That I was ugly, and worthless, and so many things that would make you go suicidal. I was honestly considering it, I noticed that I was crying. I put my glasses on top of my head and cried into my knees, rocking back and forth in the middle of the living room carpet. I looked at the box beside me, filled with everything that Jeremy had given me. I threw it at the couch aggressively and groaned, crying even harder. I suddenly heard the front door burst open, it was raining outside and as soon as the door slammed lightning and thunder struck from the sky. I looked over at the front door, It was Jeremy. He stared at me, a concerned look on his face. He shut the door and I turned back to the fireplace, wiping tears from my eyes and going criss-cross-apple-sauce.
"Michael.." He said in a quiet voice, walked over to me, I quickly stood up and moved away from him.
"Don't take another step in my direction, I can't be trusted around you. Don't think you can talk your way into my arms, either." I shouted at him, he stood there. Frozen, tears began to stream down my face again. He put his hands in his pockets, looking down at the floor.
"Christine is a bitch, do you have any fucking idea what she has said to me?!" I snapped at him, clenching my fists. Crying harder than I ever have in my life.
"DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO ME, JEREMY?!" I was crying and yelling at him, he started to tear up. My heart was telling me to hug him and say sorry, my mind was telling me to yell at him. Make him feel sorry for what he has done.
"I'm not fucking naive, she has caused me to have suicidal thoughts, Jeremy. SUI-FUCKING-CIDAL THOUGHTS!" I screamed, I fell onto the floor in tears. Clutching at my hair, on my knees and hunched over. Jeremy came over and hugged me tightly, at this point, I didn't care. I gave up trying to make him feel bad. I clutched his back and I was crying intensely, somewhat muffled from Jeremy's shoulder. Jeremy was crying too, we both sat there on the floor in each other's embrace.
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We sat there for a long time, holding each other tightly and just plain crying our eyes out til we had no tears left to cry. He eventually stopped crying, but I was still crying, but a little less violently. He shushed me and whispered it's okay, i'm here now in my ear more than a million times. I eventually calmed down and let down sniffles, it was silence now. All except the crackling of the fire, and the storm outside. Jeremy pulled away, and took out his phone. Typing aggressively, then showed me the phone.
Christine, we need to break up. I cannot stand how you are treating Michael and separated us apart. Goodbye.
You have blocked this user
I looked back up at him as he turned his phone off and slipped it into his phone.
"Y-You didn't have to do that.. y-you w-were happy w-with her.." I said in sniffles, wiping tears from my eyes. He shook his head and smiled at me softly, cupping both of my cheeks with his hands.
"I really wasn't, she ignored me most of the time for Jake.." He said quietly, I hugged him and rested my forehead on his shoulder, relaxing my arms. I felt more at ease, safe, and loved.
"I'm really sorry.. you didn't deserve any of this. I-I abandoned you, and left you for Christine. You are such a good and kind person with a great heart, and didn't deserve a heartbreak like that, I'm so, so, so, so sorry.." He whispered, rubbing my back and massaging circles into it.
"What can I do to make up for this?" He soothed, I chuckled and smiled, pulling out of the hug.
I wiped a tear from my eye, "That's all I needed." I smiled.
"N-No! You need more then just a sorry, seriously, what do you want?"
"I just want my player two back, and now I do." I smiled, holding both of his hands. He blushed, and so did I. He cupped my cheek with one of his hands, I leaned into his hand. He slowly leaned into my face, he stopped, I knew what he was doing.
"I-Is this okay..?" He said quietly, I wrapped my arms around his torso, connecting our lips. He quickly picked me up and moved both of us on the couch, I was laying down, my head resting against the arm of the chair. He was on top of me, his arms supporting his weight and one of his knees in between my legs, the other by my hip. He pulled away and stared down at me, with a bright smile on his face. He tucked a piece of hair behind my ear and chuckled a bit, I blushed and bit my lip.
"Michael, I'm sorry for everything. I love you so much.." He leaned down and kissed my neck softly, I gripped his hair with both of my hands and smiled tiredly, closing my eyes.
"I love you too.." I said in a yawn
"You tired?" He mumbled against my skin, I nodded and he laid on top of me, he was light so he wasn't crushing me and I was comfortable. He looked up at me and rested his chin on my chest, I played with his hair.
"Your beautiful, and whatever Christine told you was incorrect. You are perfect." He took my wrist and kissed the top of my hand, winking at me in the process. I chuckled and closed my eyes, Jeremy pulled the blanket that was laying on top of the couch and pulled it over us, falling asleep in each other's embrace.
