The First Chance (Niall and twin Payne's Liam and Leeroy

Louis' Reflection

A/N This is Louis' thoughts right after Niall tells him his story. He's just thinking of what Niall told him. He also start to think more about Harry and wondering when they are going to go further in their relationship. Don't worry that's not for a while since they are still young.

Louis' POV

            As soon as I see that Niall has left I start to think about what he told me. How he was betrayed and hurt and bullied. How he's been carrying around the secret of the fact that he was raped by his former friends because they didn't like that he was gay. My thoughts primarily linger on the fact that he is suicidal and has tried to commit suicide twice before. I know that he can't really be with the Payne twins until he learns that he is more than worthy of love. Liam and Leeroy aren't infallible though. They've been through stuff but what Niall has been through they were just exacerbate. My thoughts are just swirling in my head. 

      I think back to when Niall said he tried to kill himself. I realize that the person he should talk to, who'd understand is Harry. Especially since he said he still cuts. I'm reaching for my phone to text Harry when I realize that it's not my place to tell Harry about Niall's problems. I can't help but sigh because I know that Niall needs help still. I can see the loneliness in his eyes even when he is with people. There's something there that says he does not deserve to be here and  alive. I also know he is attracted to the twins. That's a whole different set of things to be thinking of. I am determined to help Niall as much as I can. I know I have no classes with him but I can have harry keep an eye on him in his classes then I can ask some of my younger friends to keep an eye out for bullying. I know we are an antibullying school but it still happens. Harry was bullied up until we started dating and that is when I came out to the school. Only my closest friends knew that I was gay let alone dating my childhood sweetheart. 

          I start to think more about my Hazza. I've know him forever. He is everything to me. It's been an amazing year with him. Of course I can't help but think about having sex with him. I won't mind bottoming but at some point I would like to top him. I want to know what it would be like to be inside him. It's too soon for that. As I'm thinking of all this my phone starts ringing and its just the person I was thinking of Hazza. We talk for a while before saying our love yous and byes. I think he understood that there was a lot on my mind still. I did tell him that he should try and hang out with Niall the next day. I'm hoping Niall will tell Haz that he has an issue with cutting and get the help he so desperately needs. I can only hope though. I can't control what Niall or Harry do or don't do. I have no control. I can only hope that Niall doesn't get bullied and try to end his life again. He has so much to live for.

A/N This is a question for way later. But, should I have Louis top or should it be Harry or should they kind of share that really? Lemme know in the comments. As I said before we don't get any smut until way later as they are only 14 and 15 right now.