The First Chance (Niall and twin Payne's Liam and Leeroy

Liam's Regret

Liam's POV

          I didn't realize the severity of my actions until my brother kicked me out of the house. It really hit me then just how much I was hurting my own brother. We had always had a special bond and I ruined it for someone who would and could never love me. I left my brother to deal with a person who was not who he fell in love with originally but grew to eventually love. I know he has his memories back now. Niall is the Niall that I fell in love with before, but I doubt he'd even take me back. I look over at the boy sleeping next to me and I know what I have to do now. I have to end everything and hope that Lee and Ni will take me back. I know I'll have to work on it though. Before leaving I leave a note for Zayn. It's the least that I can do. 

       Zayn,

   This may not come as a surprise to you, but I have to go back and apologize to my brother and Niall. I have been an absolute dick to the both of them. I know I hurt Niall worse then when he was in a coma. I hurt Leeroy far worse by going behind his back and sleeping with you. I'm sorry it has to end this way but I wish the best for you.

Liam.

          Once I had all my stuff I got our driver Paul to come and pick me up. I was in pretty bad shape but I felt that I deserved it. I didn't go directly home because I knew that I would hardly be welcomed there. I went to Lou's place because I knew that no matter how much I messed up he'd always take me in. I'm not surprised when I get there and he immediately lets me in and directs me to his shower. I feel better as I'm washing what feels like the false me away. I know I messed up really bad and I know that things will take a long time to be the same if they ever get that way. 

     Once I'm out of the shower I see that there are scissors on the sink waiting to cut my unruly long slightly curly hair. I slowly start to unevenly cut my hair and I know it looks hideous but in a way it reflects where I've been and what I should look like on the outside. Especially with how I've treated Lee. 

        I head home by thanks of Lou. I stand outside my own door a stranger. I slowly knock and am very surprised to see that my brother actually answered the door, though I can also clearly hear the Irish brogue of Niall. He surprises me even more by allowing me to come inside the house. We then go into the sitting room and I take a deep breath before beginning. " Niall I am so sorry for all that I did to you. I know you have your full memory back now and I know that before I was horrible to you because I couldn't love who you were with your amnesia and after your coma. That does not excuse my behavior towards you though. Will you accept my sincerest apoligy?" I ask my voice very much broken and tears in my eyes and this is just the first apology that I have to make. I see him slowly nod his head before saying yes but that I will have to work to earn his trust back. I nod because that is to be expected. 

      I turn to my brother and start my apology to him. "Lee, words cannot be enough to even express how sorry I am to have cheated on you and ruin what we had. What makes it even worse is that I was doing it with someone who cheated on us. I am so sorry for what happened the day that you kicked me out of the house. You were completely justified in doing so. Will you accept my apology?" I'm all out crying at this point and can barely even see, when suddenly there is a warmth around me.  I realize then that Lee is hugging me. He whispers in my ear, "I forgive you but we can't go back to the way we were. It's just like with Ni; you're going to have to earn my trust back again. I nod and am happy that I at least made my peace with the two people who mean the world to me. 

A/N I'm thinking of doing a character ask where you can ask my characters or myself any questions you may have. I just want a little more interaction between you my readers and myself.