The First Chance (Niall and twin Payne's Liam and Leeroy

Looking Back without Regret

A/N This is going to be Zayn's side of the and the real reason in his mind why the twins broke up with him. You'll kind of hate Zayn at the end.

Zayn's POV

                    When I went to get Leeroy after seeing what was happening to Niall I knew that there was never going to be another chance with Leeroy at least. Liam on the other hand, well, lets just say we are sharing benefits with each other again. I feel bad about it though because I know that he loves Niall, he just doesn't love who he is now. 

         I think back to the 6 months that I was with the twins. It was amazing. Do I regret cheating on them the entire time? Yes, a little bit. I was sure that I could get away with the cheating for a lot longer than I did. I'm not the one person or in this case two person, kind of guy. I sleep around. I don't do commitment. I look over to where Liam is on my bed sleeping naked for me to see. Yes we did just have sex so what? He knows that I'm using him because like I said before I don't do relationships. Do I regret not picking up the underwear before taking the twins virginity? Yes, I do actually because I was hoping to string them along for a few years before breaking their hearts. 

      I look back at the sleeping boy in my bed but feel nothing. I leave the room and go onto the balcony to smoke my weed. Yes, I am a rebel and I make my way through the school sleeping around. I;m not the good guy that people used to think I was.

         I know when I first started dating Liam and Leeroy everything was amazing. But then a lot of sh*it happened at home. My parents started fighting a lot and as an only child being forgotten I turned to drugs and alcohol but more importantly I turned to sex. That is when I basically turned my life into something completely different. I didn't like the boys or anyone. I don't know how to love or anything. 

        I'm enjoying using Liam and he doesnt even care. I am sick, I have HIV because I slept around and not always used protection. When Liam and I first started sleeping together while Niall was still in his coma he said the only way he would was if I used condoms. He doesn't even know that that is what is keeping him from being sick. I don't really care though. Liam is a good f*uck and the fact that he is technically cheating on his own brother makes me laugh; especially considering that that's the reason they broke up with me. I can't help but smirk at the thought of Leeroy finding out that Liam is sleeping with me. I never really cared about Leeroy to be honest; the only reason I dated the both of them is because I couldn't date Liam without also dating Leeroy but now the tables have turned. It's Liam who is doing the cheating, the one who is going to break his brothers heart.