The First Chance (Niall and twin Payne's Liam and Leeroy

Trying to Understand

Niall's POV

        I just don't understand what I just saw. It's the three of us in a relationship and yet Roy and Li decide to go and have sex without me even being in the loop. They know how I feel about sex given my past.  I just want to understand but with the tears streaming down my face I know I won't until I can calm my emotions down a bit. Before I even realize it, I made my way to Lou's house knowing that his comfort is what I need. One of his younger sisters lets me in and I find my way up to his room assuming that's where he was. As I get closer I start hearing similar noises to what I heard before find Li and Roy. 

       I guess it really shouldn't surprise me that they are having sex. They've been together for a long time. I just really need to talk to Lou. I'm so confused and a lot hurt. I knew that Li loved to have sex but I never in a million years thought that Roy would do this to me. 

    Instead of knocking on Lou's door I walk slowly down the stairs. It wasn't until I bumped into Mummy Jay that I realized that I was crying. She could tell that something was upsetting me and I had the opportunity to talk to someone about what I was going through. She makes me a cuppa and we just start to talk. I tell her about the stuff that I went through back in Ireland and how it has effected how I react to things around me. That then leads to me walking in on Li and Roy having sex. I feel so betrayed. I am sobbing by the time I let everything out. 

       Some time during the telling Lou came down with Harry and they heard everything I was telling Jay. I don't realize that they came down until I feel both of their arms around me. After I am done crying we all head down to Lou's personal theater room and play round after round of Fifa. I'm starting to feel better about myself and I know that I can stay here for as long as I need to. 

        Its been a two weeks since I last even tried to talk to Li and Roy. There's not much I can say to them. I know they both know I am so hurt about it. I walk home and actually home. It's been a while since I actually have been home. I know that my parents have been worried about me but I also know that Jay called them to tell them that I was staying there for a bit. During the two weeks I made a decision about what I was going to do regarding the twins. I even talked to Haz and Lou about it and they support me 100 percent.

A/N  Sorry it's been so long. A lot has been going on. I unlike some am an essential worker so I don't have the luxury of staying home and writing. I wish. I intentionally left it at a cliff hanger. Stay tuned for the next chapter.