Vent book

*sigh*

I'm a bit pissed to be honest. I had to go into a different room to talk to my friends and all since my mom wouldn't fucking leave. My fault for getting a bit impatient and trying to hold myself back from trying to tell her to leave the room.

Because she thought I was being weird and stuff, and then asked me if I was talking to anyone on the phone which I was. I did lie my way out of it, which made me have a sick feeling in my stomach but I did it because..

I don't want to be fucking taken away from my friends or my lover.

These people are important to me and mean a lot to me, I don't want to be alone again damn it. Not again. I don't want to be left alone. And I especially don't want to be taken away from my lover. I love them so much and I don't want to be away from them..

I love my mom honestly, but I just wish she could understand how important my friends are to me even though I don't know them in person. She doesn't fucking get it.

"It's very dangerous" "are you sending nudes to people?" And other crap.

I know that she worries and all. And I know that I've done stupid shit that I regret back then which is part of the reason that caused her to get like this probably along with my past and her not knowing what was going on, but I really don't want to be alone or anything.

Usually I can't lie to my mom with a straight face. I did it this time though. Or attempted to even if my stomach was slightly turning.

I'm not going to be isolated again. I really wish all of my friends and I knew each other in person so I could not only see them but not have my mom on my fucking ass about this shit.

I know that she worries about me. But I'm fine. I'm just tired of it. It isn't fair for crying out loud.

It's okay for my brother to talk because he has friends and one of them are close like my friends.

Yet when I fucking talk and shit it's weird. I bet she knows how alone I am which is why it's strange. And it isn't fucking fair...