Vent book

Memories

I really hate when this happens. I'm sure others go through this too and it sucks. But right now I kind of feel strange, I know that I get like this because of this happening though..

Don't worry, I'm just going through memories at the moment. Nothing bad and all..

Just thinking about when I was younger and stuff..comparing it to now and everything..

Remembering how someone who was super close to my mother and us just drifted apart after moving here..or how my grandma wasn't such a weirdo towards me and my brother before an incident that had gone down a couple of months back..

Or how I was a little more confident and all...never really gave up on myself and all..I'm not saying that I do give up..but..this isn't an excuse but..you wouldn't really understand..

You'd have to be in my own shoes to get what I'm saying about giving up on myself just a bit.

I'm also thinking about some old friends I guess..ones from the group I'm in that are now gone...other ones that have changed and stuff..

When I thought that moving was going to be good before I got in an unhealthy state..how the "little sheeps" as I put it, were all together before shit happened..

So much stuff though..there's so many things that I could ramble about that is flying through my mind at the moment but this chapter would be long and I'd have too many chapters for each topic to talk about..

I wonder if it'll all get better eventually or how things are going to turn out soon..I'm sure it will get better soon though, right?..