Vent book

Alone again??

I don't want to sound like I'm complaining or anything, and I'm happy to have all of my friends around..

But I think I'm starting to feel a bit lonely again. Not entirely like last year though,

My boyfriend is still with me and all but I guess we don't talk much as we used to due to school or us being busy..haha, long distance relationships can be difficult ya know?..

That doesn't mean that I want to break up with him though. I still love him of course, but that's besides my point. I just feel like a majority of my friends are gone mostly

No one in our server even talks to one another anymore, it's dead and no one wants to vc at all like we used to. I wasn't there for the whole summer since the whole summer of last year was super fun, however I was there at the end of it which was the best time of my life...

Now it just feels empty. People rarely talk on there nowadays, and this might sound stupid of me but I made the server alive only for a moment after I pinged everyone since I invited someone new..

And that just showed me that some of the server members can talk on there yet they decide to fucking not which pissed me off a little bit after all of them came to the server just from one god damn ping.

Unlike last year, nowadays it's just mostly me talking to my boyfriend and one of our friends from the server and me talking to them or just my boyfriend and I.

It feels lonely, I know my friends are still there but it isn't the same..it just feels so alone I guess...

At least I have a few people from other servers to talk to though but it's not the same as my first server with my group of friends.

I'll even admit I miss some of the asshole server members that used to be there (except for my ex of course lmfao) as much as they were dicks,

They at least gave a little life to the server but they've changed and everyone else has I suppose. I'm getting nervous a bit about feeling alone, I shouldn't be though because I at least have my boyfriend and stuff..

It's just lonely though and isn't the same..and it makes me have mixed emotions of being sad since that was the place where I enjoyed spending my time when things were going on for me in life, upset because no one is as active as they were back then, and pissed off a bit because I know some of my friends can chat there but don't even really do so.

Ugh..it isn't the same...