Vent book

Changes

I've never had this settled into my mind, and I've thought about it differently before..but it surprises me a little with how I've changed a lot.

A whole lot..

I mean..we all do change, right? Everything does I'm sure.

But I remember the times of when I used to be a "normal" little girl that was sassy a little, or how I went from that and turned into a somewhat stereotype gay LGBT artist that draws popular games and what not due to people I was surrounded by

And how it went from there to me coming on here and turning at first, into a writer..

Then to a role playing attention whore weeaboo like most of the people on here..

To some lonely weirdo that was turning all nutty and thinking weird things were normal when they really weren't..

And now here I am.

Some girl on the Internet that was lonely for a while before, met a group of friends and finally settled in without feeling like I'm just there and with a boyfriend that I can actually talk to..

I wonder how things would've been though...I mean, when I put it together I only went through everything over a single app on a device that I found a long time ago when I was a child..

I even remember exactly what happened. All I ever wanted to do was just draw on my device since I love drawing, and I wanted an app on where I can practice with digital art instead of art on paper.

But I never knew that would lead me up to here..who knows what could've happened if I never got that app at such a young age?

Would I be alone and go all whack from it??

Have an easier or harder time coping with things?

Not make the stupid mistakes that I've made back then??

Be more sociable and more opened about some things that I keep from my mom since I get nervous about telling her stuff?

Still meet my friends and boyfriend?

There's a lot of things I question about it. How things would've possibly gone worse or better if things had turned different..

Right now though, even if I have my moments of questioning things and all or hate some of the stuff that has happened like moving here..

I'm still happy to be where I'm at with my loved one and friends..