Vent book

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I don't know what to name this title, but for some reason I feel like crying right now. Crying a lot right now. I thought about earlier a bit and I'm trying to shrug it off, but I just realized it again.

I remember how I used to be so good at holding in my tears, I could stay quiet and hold them in with only my eyes watering. Then I had to let a few out here and there while my mouth quivered from wanting to cry out, and then I just cried hard while biting down on my gums a little to hold it in.

Now? I can't hold it in at all pretty much. Well..I can but I make sure to muffle the small noises I let out from almost crying out and try hard to make sure that not all of my tears are running down my face.

All I want is to be held in my love's arms and just have them hold me close and to not let go...

Just please don't let go of me...

Honestly though, I feel bad about making this and stuff. I know I shouldn't because I should vent and stuff but..

I just don't want it to seem like I get all sad too much and all and I feel bad about it..

But hey..everything will eventually be okay.