(6/13/18) Welcome to where I vent out stuff!! This might be posted a lot since I'm a person that vents a lot and needs to get a life!! This will include stories/small stories, my nightmares or me doing a story about them, drawings, rants (?), me fli...
I have a group of friends on here that I'm thankful for but we don't talk much on this app unlike Discord, since we're rarely active on here.
Don't get me wrong, I'm glad I have my friends but it's just that I wish they were here with me. I'm not saying that online friendship isn't good enough because believe me, there was a point in time before I met my friends that I was super lonely and desperate while being on edge.
It's just that sometimes when I go on the few social media accounts that I have because of my family, I see my classmates or people that I talked to at school before I moved having a grand time with their group of friends and it makes me envious.
Back then I used to get really envious of them, but now I feel mostly happy yet at the same time I kind of can't help but feel jealous just a bit..
The reason for this is because I see them going on trips with their friends to other states or countries, staying at their house and playing games or doing anything, taking group photos, doing activities together, FaceTiming one another, shopping, and other stuff like saying how they're the best person ever..
I envy that because that's something that I've never gotten to have since I don't really have any friends in person. I've never done any of those with anybody..I mean I have had at least two friends come over and play on the Ps3 with me in elementary or back in kindergarten my mom would go to her friend's house and I'd play with my childhood friend there.
That's all in the past though, and it seems that all of them now have a group of friends to hang around with and do fun things together..while I'm just over here without any of that. All of them have posts about spending time with their friends while I just post very little about my drawings, me playing my game a bit, and a few pictures of just me and that's it.
Then the majority of my followers are mostly just of my family members. (That I love of course hehe ♥️)
The only closest thing that I've ever gotten was one of my classmates inviting me to his group chat on a social media and talking to some people on there, but I didn't really know anyone and I was really shy since that was the first time that anyone has ever done that to me.
I would mention the time I texted this one other person since I was kind of in his group, but I don't really think it counts since one of the boys in that group kept choking me and at one point fought with me a little bit.
One thing that actually pisses me off to no end is the people that say that they're lonely or that they don't have any friends when they fucking do have friends, hell even a group of friends probably. And they're going like "oh I'm so lonely and no one cares about me."
Really? Be thankful that you literally have some people to talk and hang around with in person instead of having no one. As for being alone, shut the actual fuck up. You don't get to say that without knowing how that actually feels! I only say that because I dealt with something like that!!
Don't even get me started on the people who complain about the drama in their friend group too and the dumbasses who go like "I wish she was dead B-boo hoo!" Really? Do you really wish that of your friend when they could probably only be the one that's there for you even if they get into arguments with you?
Ugh, those people piss me off so much when they do that since they have no idea and want to act like the victim of it.
One thing that I'm nervous about having friends in person though is my time with my friends online, since I have to go outside more because I can't just stay inside forever and not spend any time with my family, if I had friends in person I'd have to spend time with them and I'd get less time with my boyfriend and online friends.
So I guess that's somewhat a good thing since I can spend some time with my online friends here. It's just that I wish that all of them were here then it'd be so much better for all of us.
I can just imagine us hanging out and maybe walking to somewhere like one of our friend's houses, the beach, store, mall, or playing games. It would be so much fun to watch one of my friends and my boyfriend play their games since I like watching others play games..
If only they were all here it would make my day and I'd be so happy to hang out with them and take pictures for memories that would be precious to me..kind of like this Base art drawing that I've made of some of my friends and I that are mods on discord
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Hehe..I couldn't fit myself so I drew a miniature me in the background all proud..
I just wish that they were here though..maybe one day though. I just have to be patient for now at least, and even if I get a bit jealous sometimes about my classmates having friends in person,
I'm actually really happy that I can have a group of friends that I can talk to and be with that I consider to be like family..after all, they're all I need with my family in my life..and they all make me so happy.
Hopefully we all get to see each other one day though at least, hehehe..
