Be Alright

Chapter 1: A Chance

My lids flew open to a buzzing sound coming from underneath my pillow. I propped myself up, on my elbows and blindly felt around for my phone. My fingers finally grasped and pulled out the bright, vibrating device.

Who the hell was calling during my precious hours of sleep? I tapped the screen to answer, but only after thirty seconds of a blurry struggle to read the name Main Hoe 👭💕.

"Hello?" I croaked.

"HEY", I heard my best friend Caroline say loudly on the other end.

"What's wrong?!", I asked a bit worried, but I knew by the tone of her voice that she was more excited than anything. "What happened?!"

"JUSTIN!!!!", she squealed. "GUESS WHAT?! HOLY FUCK YOU WONT BELIEVE!!" I sighed, rubbed my eyes and looked at the time.

"Its 2:04 in the morning, get some sleep." I complained. I mean, I'd do anything for Justin too, but sleep was precious to me. And besides, if it was horrible news, I would understand why it couldn't wait till morning, but by the tone of her voice, I knew this wasn't the case.

"I KNOW AND IM SORRY BUT YOU'LL WANT TO HEAR THIS." she said seriously.

I sat up groggily.

"OKAY, OKAY. OKAY.....JUSTIN..........." She took an extra long, dramatic pause and I groaned, growing impatient and more frustrated by the second. "IS....GOING TO BE................"

"JUST TELL ME." I snapped, still unable to imagine what could be so important.

"A JUDGE ON X FACTOR" She squealed. "He's. Going. To judge. On X Factor. I just heard. He just tweeted about it." She finished, being dead serious.

I took a few moments to take in what Care had just said, but it hadn't quite sunk in...Or maybe it hit me like a bus, but I just hadn't seen it coming. I wasn't sure which one.

"Hello?" She waited for some kind of response.

"Oh.My...God.." I had no other words.

"I know", she whispered. "That's why I wanted to tell you now. Savannah, this is perfect for you...Imagine.....Imagine if he heard you sing!"

I didn't know weather to cry or not, so I just started laughing.

Music has been my passion since I could walk. The attention of being a celebrity was not what drew me in, but it was that I've always wanted to make music, travel the world and be loved for me. But of course, that's a one in a million chance.

I've auditioned for X Factor before, but didn't make the cut to the judge's round because I "wasn't ready". I gave up after that. It was so hard for me to gain the confidence to go out and do anything big like this...but now I'm 18, and I'll be 19 soon. I'm older, I've given my voice some time to get better. This could be my chance! Not only to meet my idol, but to chase the life I've been after forever. And singing? In front of Justin Bieber? Almost everyday when I was younger I thought about what it'd be like to meet him on the street, and then beg him to hear me sing, just like he did to Usher. I used to wonder if he'd actually agree to take a minute to hear me, or if he'd even like it..It would just mean the world to meet him, let alone have him hear me sing! I mean, I never said that I was good...but others did.
Maybe..just maybe something could possibly go right? I've been only dreaming about how perfect it would be if Justin was a judge on American Idol or some singing show, but now that it's actually happening..? It's a whole new opportunity..a chance.

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The next morning Caroline was at my doorstep before I could even brush my teeth.

"You COULD sing one of his songs, but you don't want to present yourself as a crazy fan because then he'll think of you as a fan, not a friend..and we don't want that....but at the same time his music is pretty good, so why not. But at the same time you should pick Ariana or Christina Aguleria to show off your voice or something." She said as I spit out the pasty water.

God, Caroline was such a character. She was so jittery all the time.

"Slow down!" I washed my brush. "I really want to sing Neon Lights by Demi though." I washed out my mouth with clean water.

"Oh my god YES. Demi songs suit your voice. Skyscraper? Nawh, too slow. What about Catch me?" She said quickly.

"I like those.." I looked at Caroline and sighed. "I just...I really want them to like me."

"They WILL like you, Savannah. You're gonna get through..No, you WILL get through.." She smirked. "Where would you beeee, if I didn't believeee!", she sang loudly, jumping down onto my bed.

"Stop making those corny ass Justin puns!", I gave her a disgusted look as I sat beside her.

"Oh shutup, you like them." She grabbed the remote and put on the last episode of Hell's Kitchen.

"Like you LIKEE Chef Ramsey?" I laughed.

"Shutup. He's adorable." She shot me a look, holding back a smile.

"He's like 80" I giggled, but she ignored my comment.

..The truth was, I did like her corny puns. I liked everything about Caroline. Yeah, she was nothing like me, but that was why I liked her. She is everything I'm not. Like my missing peice. And she was right. I'd be nowhere if she didn't believe in me. She pushes me to go after what I want, and I do the same for her. I mean my mom believes in me, but I don't talk to her the same way I talk to Care. To be fair I don't talk to anyone the way I talk to Care. She's my other half, and I'm so thankful.

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All I could think about since that day, was the audition in June. I wasn't planning on auditioning again, so now I only have a month to practice. I need this. To be completely honest...I'm not smart. I'm barely a 70% average student, with not a clue about what I want to be. Music is what I really want. Making music, traveling the world, seeing new things, doing new things, selling out stadiums..and for ONCE in my life being good enough at something? Now that is what I want. It's a career where I'd never have to work a day in my life, because music isn't work for me; singing and playing could never be 'work'. My dad once said to me, "Find something you love to do, and chase after it. That way, you'll never have to work a day in your life." That was probably the closest he'd ever come to being a father.

Anyhow, now not only did a huge door open, beaconing me to chase what I love, but I also get to see my lifesaver in person? It was like a meet and greet, but so much better..It was a full-package deal. I was beyond excited, and still beyond nervous; I could already feel the knots in my stomach, and it was a whole month away. I dreaded feeling what it was like a week away..and what about a day away?

What if I get rejected again? was a frequent question that bounced around in my thoughts for the next couple of weeks. I almost wanted to not audition because of it, but every time the dreaded question came to mind, the lyrics to one of my favorite songs would immediately play back in my head:

"If you had one shot..one opportunity to seize everything you've ever wanted..one moment...would you capture it, or just let it slip?"

I had let fear get in the way far too many times in my life...But I want this, and I am not letting fear hold me back from yet another opportunity..Not this time.