need you | g.d.

7 - whole again

kiara - wednesday

  i let grayson drive back to my house. i told him i would meet him there once i picked up bailey from simone's.

  my head is spinning. how can one forgive so quick like that? especially someone like me. i don't deserve it really, i don't. but i'm thankful to at least be talking to him again.

my lips still tingle from where his touched mine. i just wanted to be with him every second. it felt like the first time but almost ten times better.

i park my car in the parking garage and get out walking towards the daycare building. i pull the glass door open as the little bell at the top jingles. i walk towards the front desks and the lady smiles up at me.

"i'm here to pick up my daughter," i say glancing down the hall towards what looks like a play room.

she nods her head and points towards the room at the end telling me she was taking a nap. perfect time on my part. bailey was not easy to wake up and when she did she was normally a fussy mess.

i thank the woman before walking back towards the room and creeping in to see her placed in a crib, her eyelids shut. i slide my hands underneath her frail body and pick her up gently laying her head on my shoulder. simone steps into the room and hands me her diaper bag.

i thank her and she follows me out to my car carrying the car seat. she sets it in and buckles it down. i set bailey in the car seat and shut the door.

"your daughter is amazing," she says glancing through the window at my sleeping baby. "and not that it's any of my business, but how did the lunch go with the father?"

honestly i can already see me and this girl becoming friends. i wonder if she's single. maybe ethan's single as well.

i snap back to reality quick and smile thinking about what happened. "uh, it went good, really good, actually."

  she smiles. "that's amazing."

  "he's meeting her after this," i sigh a nervous breath and she places her hand in my shoulder for comfort.

  "well you know where to find me if you need to talk or anything, i'm always here," she says motioning towards the building with a chuckle.

  i laugh and thank her before hopping in my car. i glance back at bailey through the rear view mirror and see bailey's eyes open.

  "hi baby," i coo and she smiles at the sound of my voice. "you ready to meet your daddy?"

  i cringe at my words but hide my face with a small smile. i've been waiting for this moment for too long.

grayson

i anxiously drive down the street glancing at all the houses in the area. kiara sure as hell didn't go cheap.

of course she didn't, it's not like the money she used was her money.

the gps lady in my phone tells me to take a right, so i do as told and turn the wheel on a one-eighty.

"in five hundred feet the destination will be on your right."

i watch my phone as i keep driving to make sure i pull into the correct driveway.

"turn right."

i do as told and glance up at the front when i'm stopped. it's very nice, not gonna lie.

i sit on my phone for a few minutes before i hear a car parking. i turn my head and notice kiara getting out of the drivers seat. she sees me looking and flashes me a smile. i show one back and take a deep breath before slowly getting out of the car.

i don't what's wrong with me. part of me is excited and the other part is scared.

what if bailey doesn't like me? i mean she's never met me but i'm still her dad. wow, that sounds weird, i'm a dad.

"grayson," kiara's voice draws me out of my thoughts.

i snap back to reality and notice her and the baby are right in front of me. an automatic smiles curves onto my lips. the little girl grips onto kiara's short hair, pulling it towards her mouth in a fist.

"ow, bails, you're hurting mama," kiara squeals and gently pulls bailey's fist from her hair. she looks back up to me. "gray, you don't have to be so nervous."

she can tell? shit. out of instinct i hold my arms out, indicating i want to hold her.

kiara chuckles and lifts bailey up and into my arms. i wrap my forearm underneath her butt and set her on my side, staring down at her. she really does look a lot like me.

her nose and thick eyebrows are perfect demonstrations. her face scrunches together and i hold her closer to me but she start fussing.

"here," kiara giggles a little before grabbing bailey from my arms.

she instantly quiets down, looking back at me from where kiara keeps her in her arms.

"we can go inside?" kiara suggests, attempting to grab the diaper bag from the concrete.

"i got it," i say before she struggles too much.

i pick it up and she leads the way into her house. i shut the door behind me and kiara keeps walking in.

i follow her through the long hallway noticing the portraits of bailey that were hung up. she's beautiful.

she's my kid.

i walk past the pictures and into the kitchen noticing the great size. it's definitely big for only a mom and child.

she sets bailey in the highchair before going over to the fridge and grabbing out a bottle. she warms it up and then grabs bailey before motioning for to follow her again.

we walk into the living room, kiara walking in front of me. her skirt is riding up from her hoisting bailey onto her hip. i try not to stare but it's not that easy.

she sits down and tugs on the hem of her skirt as she hands bailey the bottle and holds her in one arm. she glances back up at me.

i stare into her eyes for what seems like forever until she clears her throat and glances down at bailey.

"you know, i really missed you, grayson," she says as she twirls one of bailey's curls around her finger.

i scoot a little closer to her. "i missed you so much more."

she blushes and looks up to meet my eyes. i think she's leaning in until she speaks again. "you wanna feed her?"

my anxiety comes back and i watch as kiara places the small but chubby baby into my arms. her eyes look up into mine and at that moment i feel my heart flutter.

this is everything. my life is whole again.

a/n: ehhhh this was an honest flop oops but i hope you guys don't mind the awful writing and editing pls and ty
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