Stephew One shots

Let Her Go (Part 1)

Hello everyone! So this was inspired by a comment on Darling (Part 1). This is going to be a AU where Stephanie died during child birth. Matthew has to learn to live with this while raising a child. Prepare yourself. 

Well you only need the light when it's burning low

She was the light of my life. From the first time if I first met her she had the sun sparkling in her eyes and her smile reflected the sunlight within. She allowed me to spend time with the light. To reflect the light she shows me much like the moon. She gave me warmth and hope on my darkest of days. After of years of the two of us spending our lives together we decided that we wanted to have a family. We were so excited to learn that Stephanie was pregnant. We would be able to give our child light and wisdom and love. However, everything wasn't as it seemed. From the very beginning of the pregnancy things were difficult to say the least. We both wanted this so bad. We wanted to raise a family more than anything else in this world.  Although Stephanie wouldn't admit it, her light was fading. The warmth she once brought with her was slowly leaving her. I should have done more to help her my continues to scream although I know that in all reality there was nothing more I could do. I watched as her light was faded as our baby grew. What seemed like a lifetime and a blink of an eye our baby was ready to be born.

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

It was snowing the day our baby was born. We weren't in California but instead we were traveling. It was an unexpected surprise. Stephanie always loved the snow. It always brought a smile to her face as it fell from the sky. Today was no different as when she went into labor she asked to have a view of the snow falling. I hope our child loves snow as much as she does. It made me so happy to see even a weak smile on my wife's face on this hard day. 

Only know you love her when you let her go

Stephanie died in child birth. She never got to see our beautiful baby girl. I named her  Thea. The name seemed fitting. Her name means light. Thea, my precious baby girl would never meet her mother. Thea was healthy baby. Stephanie would be so proud! I can't believe she is dead. As her lifeless body laid on the table and a crying baby was in my arms everything has changed. 

 Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

I often forget how much I felt like I was high in the clouds around Stephanie. Now I feel like I hit rock bottom. I just want to let Stephanie rest peacefully. I want to give Thea the world. Right now I feel so low like I can't do either. Yet I try. Sleepless nights with baby Thea are some of the best. She so beautiful and perfect like her mother. She gives me joy. I just hope that I can do the same for her. 

 Only hate the road when you're missing home

We are finally allowed to go home after what feels like forever at the hospital. They just wanted to make sure Thea was healthy. Now it was time to go home. I missed it. I missed my friends and family. I needed them now more than ever. With them I am at home just like when I was with Stephanie. 

Only know you love her when you let her go

It was weird  when we got home. It was quiet when Skip ran up to me. He kept looking around for Stephanie. Then he saw her jar of ashes. He sniffed them. He must have gotten the message as he meowed sadly and walked over to Thea's car seat.  He stood on his hind legs and looked into it and nuzzled the baby inside. 

And you let her go

We ended up keeping her ashes in a jar up on the mantel. I couldn't think of the perfect place to put her ashes yet. Besides there is Thea, Skip, GTLive, the channels, and work to be done. 

Happy Holidays everyone! I have been working on this forever and I wanted to share it. I know its angst but I promise the next part will be fluff! I hope you enjoyed this part!~Gem