Frustrating

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Is this even real?
How could this happen?
It's not supposed to be like this...
I'm not supposed to have the happy ending...
THIS MUST BE A MISTAKE!!!

You keep saying you love me.
You keep handing me compliments,
Ones I know I don't deserve.
I just know you're playing with me,
Even if you say you'd never,
They always do...

I have enough trouble trusting friends,
Now I have to trust a partner?!?!

I have to stay alert.
I can't let my guard down.
But you're so soothing...
You make me melt with just a glance...
No NO NO!!!
Stop it right there!!
I WON'T let you crush my heart!!
It's broken enough already...

Can't you find someone else?
There's plenty other guys and girls...
Ones who aren't a mess,
One who could actually love you...

But wait-
I WANT to love you-
I'm TRYING to love you-
I CAN'T love you...

Just wait a bit longer,
It'll come... right?

Why does my heart hurt?!?!
How can it hurt?!?!
It doesn't even work right!!

How am I supposed to know if it's love???
I can't feel love,
But I want love so badly...
Am I just flustered?
I think I fluster easily.
Flustering isn't love, right?
No...

Why me?

I'm just me...

Boring old me...

I can't do anything right...

I can't even love you back...

I'm sorry...

~JessTheWolf 🐺

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