I flip the laptop screen down and bury my face into my hands.
"What have I done?" I whisper, putting my head on my desk.
How does this work?
Heck, I've never been in love until now.
I though she knew about...well
my brother.
If only I could tell her that I know the feeling.
Im still unsure of my feelings towards her.
I know they're strong, but i'm still trying to figure out whether they're positive or negative.
I have a feeling that for a while, maybe she loved me.
Maybe.
Well, she doesn't get it. She doesn't get me. I'm not some great guy who has girls falling at their feet for him, people dint even look at me. It's just,
I don't really know but,
whenever I'm with Jaz,
her bubbly emotion and star stained eyes just make me feel, well, contented.
"Right!" I say to myself, flipping my Mac screen up.
Besides that, I need to edit this movie, if, she still wants it there.
I assume she does, though.
In total, I have 7 questions asked and 7 answered. Good, that should be enough.
I also have tons of random footage, taken by me and others.
I flick through the footage.
I flick through different memories, like the day we went to Jeremy's house, and when we all did funny accents in English.
Then I see one that makes my cheeks go red.
Three seconds of us kissing,
Oh my god mum.
She must have videoed us that day.
I don't know what exactly came over me but I, without thinking, placed that scene in to 'save in movie' and that was it. I had no intention of taking it away.
Moments like this are precious,
when you're unsure of your feelings but you try to keep them at a simple rate.
When you're unsure how the other person feels, whether it's the same as you, or the opposite. Sometimes you might worry, and others, you don't.
I edit the film all night.
I don't think I slept.
This is important to me,
and not just the movie,
But Jaz as well.
On another note,
Prom is coming up.
It's only 3 weeks away and people want to show my movie at the end of prom night.
Should I ask Jaz?
