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Jaz's P.O.V

It was Nathan who asked me to prom. Nathan.

Why did I feel insecure about it at first.

He was the guy who I have loved for ages.

I love him, not like puppy love, he is my treasury. My only hope of actual love.

Mum is going to die in about three days, and prom is on in a week.

Lately I've been going through a serious series of lugubria.

I have every right to not want to talk, as well.

Mum told me, that no matter where she is, she will love me, and I know it's true.

I know that she's full of heart.

She loves everyone. She's a person with eyes that have seen no hate.

I walk into the hospital room, and mum is asleep.

She's clutching the flowers I bought for her.

On the bed is a small, lavender scented box with a blue ribbon around it.

It says

'My loving daughter, Jaz.'

It's for me.

I pull off the ribbon and put it neatly on the bed.

I open the top of the box gently and open to what I find to be a dress.

A prom dress.

It's stunning.

It's a strapless dress with a White laced body and sparkly pastel purple flow.

It stops at my knees and has frills down the bottom, making it look less elegant, and more 'fun'

The dress comes with a bracelet, clearly expensive silver. It has four purple stones, and I think they're topaz.

A soft tear escapes my eyes as I put it back in to the box, and in to my bag.

This cancer,

my mum has had, for 2 months.

It's killing her extremely fast and doctors confirm that she's only going to be alive for 48 more hours.

Every day I have been coming to the hospital for the past two weeks.

I'm not ready for her to die, I don't want her to.

She's too special to me and I don't want to be alone.

"Don't leave me alone please mum." I murmur to her, crying at her hand.

"You're not alone" A familiar voice says to me.

I turn around and see the face of the boy I am in love with.

A smaller tear drops as he walks over and sits next to me.

"I'm here." he murmurs, and throws his arms around me.

I smile gently and say "Okay."

He pulls away and moves himself towards mum.

"Thank you. Thank you for making this wonderful person who she is" he says, as he holds her hand.

And then mum is awake.

"Jaz, you never told me you had a boyfriend" she says, weakly.

"oh no we're not..."

"She's not"

"I'm not, no"

she laughs quietly.

Nathan looks at me and the doctor comes inside.

"Miss Simmers, its time to leave."

I get up and leave the room.

Nathan follows me.

I am about to jump in a taxi when Nathan chases after me.

He says

"Ever ridden a motorbike before?"

as he pulls a bright green motorbike over.

I smile and we jump on.

"So J, I was thinkin' we could go to the park and talk." He says as he starts up the motorbike, which also, made it very hard for me to hear him.

"Sure let's do that." I say, with enthusiasm.

When we got to the park, Nathan pulled out a blanket and placed it under a large tree.

"Sit?" he offered.

I sat down next to him, our shoulders brushing.

For a while we share good memories, and talk about our opinions on the way the sun moves, then he brings up his brother.

J, I know youre going through a lot with your mum. I just want you to know, I know the feeling and you're never alone."

His face grows soft and he pushes my head to his chest.

"you will never be alone" He murmured.

"but what if I am.. I won't know what-"

He cuts me off in this sequence.

"J, you can't be alone. Somewhere, someone is there for you.You must hold what is dear to you closer than anything, even if it is miles apart." He says, and then plants a soft, reassuring kiss on my forehead.

"Nathan..." I begin.

"Yes"

"Something terrible is happening" I say, my voice trailing off.

"And what might that be?"

"I think that, I just may be falling for you."

It silent.

His hands are warm and they are locked tightly with mine.

He doesn't respond to me, but I don't care. I am deeply mesmerized by his certainty in believing that things get better. His optimism inspires me.