The next few days after Scott's out-of-nowhere proposal were spent mostly reflecting (Freaking out internally) over what the right thing to do would be.
In the process I ended up spending more time with Scott than I normally would. He knew this was a lot for me to consider in just a short amount of time so he didn't mention it. Except, I knew he looking at me when he thought I wasn't paying attention.
I was paying attention. I was way more aware of things going around me now. Like Scott's occasional staring, Alyssa sucking Trevor's face in the hallways, Aaron...Sitting alone since Scott was sharing my lunch table almost everday.
I didn't want to intentionally ignore Aaron. Just the idea of leaving him out made my stomach hurt. I guess I wanted to see how things were with him not in the picture, which was stupid of me to do without even telling him.
God. I was just so blindsided by the prospect of getting engaged to Scott that my mind is all jumbled.
I haven't returned any of his texts or phone calls either, so yeah, I'm an asshole. Wednesday afternoon heading towards my next class I was coming to the conclusion that school is almost over and summer was rapidly approaching when I felt a familiar tap on my shoulder.
I knew it was Aaron before I even turned around. Don't ask me how I knew, it was like a sixth sense or something. Hm, I wonder if I would have been able to tell if it was Scott-
"Hey." He muttered. "Um hi." I said, clutching my text books tightly to my chest for something to do. How long has it been since I kissed Aaron? (too long in my opinion)
"So I was just uh, wondering how things are." he said. His tone was weird, guarded almost. "What do you mean?" I hedged. "Well you've been ignoring all phone activity from me I just figured..." He paused and looked away.
Other students passing by. "Figured...?" "I figured that since you and lamp boy seem to be inseperable that you, had uh, made your choice or whatever." He said, still looking anywhere but me.
I frowned. His exspression was carefully unbothered, but I know Aaron too good now to see beyond his mask. He was hurt, which, obviously, made my chest pang uncomfortably because I'm the one who hurt him.
"Aaron..." "It's fine Chloe, I knew you'd have to eventually make up your mind-" "Aaron I haven't chosen yet." I cut him off.
His eyes darted to mine and unmistakable signs up reflief filled his face. "R-Really?" He asked. "Yes, Aaron even if I had finally made my choice I would have told you, I wouldn't not give you an explaination."
I'm not that cruel... Maybe I am, who knows any more. "Oh, yeah you're right sorry." He mumbled, hand absently rubbing the back of his neck. "No big deal."
We stood there for another moment before he broke the silence. "Can I have a hug please?" As stressed as I was, the fact that he wanted to be close to me again gave me an irrational thrill of pleasure.
I smiled and nodded. He placed his hands on my hips and pulled until our chest were together and I wrapped my arms securely around his neck, clinging a little more than necessary.
He leaned down to rest his chin on my shoulder. "I missed you Chloe." I bit my lip and waited to speak until I was sure my voice wouldn't shake. "I...Missed you too Aaron."
He pressed a kiss to my cheek before pulling back. "Um, would it be okay if I invited you to my house after school today?" he asked. "Fine by me." I said. "Okay good, I'll see you then I guess." he sighed. "Alright, bye." "Yeah bye."
I didn't see any problem with spending time with Aaron. Scott's had the past couple days, it's only fair. Plus I seriously did miss Aaron.
Even if we simply talked for awhile, it didn't matter. Considering the fact that I've skipped more class in the past month than the whole school year, I had to make up a bunch of homework crap during my lunch hour.
