June flew by fast even for summer standards. It was like I blinked and suddenly it was July. Vacation always flies by too quickly though.
The only good thing to come out of this speedy month was that my relationship so far with Aaron was a success.
I know it's cheesy but, wait, I should probably just give in to the fact that I've turned into an utter cheeseball already. Whatever.
It might be stupid but I felt like celebrating. It was sometime in the early morning of July first. I had snuck Aaron over to my bedroom the night before, mostly for innocent cuddles. Well...
One thing had lead to another like usual. Honestly, cuddles had been all I wanted at first. But I'd like to see what you would do with a boyfriend as hot as Aaron in your bed, holding you, while being gloriously shirtless.
Oh about the whole sneaking him into my bedroom thing, my mom has been pretty good about letting Aaron stay some nights.
But lately she says a little seperation will do us good. Unfortunately for her almost every time she says that we've devised a plan for him to sleep over.
Basically involves him making a show of leaving, waiting in his car which is parked conviently down the road out of sight for me to text when mom goes to bed. Clever I know.
The cycle tends to start over the next time she tells him to go home. I know it's disrespectful to so obviously disobey like that, and I'm also aware that a night away from Aaron won't kill me.
But...I don't want to go a night away from him for no reason. I feel like I've already wasted and missed so much time not being Aaron's girlfriend as it is.
The summer is half finished and soon school will be starting, meaning even less carefree time doing couple-like things.
Call me petty, I don't care, but we should be allowed at least a few extra nights together. Even if all we do sometimes is sleep. Sigh
Anyways. Back to the early morning with a mostly naked Aaron comfortably in my bed.
Our limbs are tangled, and chests almost fully pushed against one another. In addition to having a boyfriend who loves me more than anything, I've also gotten a large amount of self confidence from this relationship.
I'd have to be super confident to be able to lay totally naked with a boy and not feel shy or concerned. It's hard to be with Aaron and not feel better about yourself.
Especially when he compliments and does his best to be encouraging. I've been kind of thinking up a theory on why.
Since Aaron never got any of those type of things from his parents growing up, he's trying to make up for it now to anyone he can. Which is quite sad when you think about it.
Because in his own way, he's reaching out, gaining other's approval. I don't think he even realizes what he's doing. Sigh.
I know there's not much I can do to help or fix that, but I want to make him feel as perfect and whole as he makes me feel. So if that means giving him the same compliments I recieve or holding him a bit tighter then so be it.
It's kind of like my mission lately, letting Aaron know how much he's loved. I just hope I'm doing a good enough job of it.
I feel Aaron breathe in deeply, his mouth twitching slightly where his face is buried in the crook of my neck.
He says that's one of his favorite spots because of how it's the best smelling place on my whole body. Personally I get why he's fond of my neck.
His own neck is at the top of the list of things I adore most. It's so strong and soft yet stubbly, it makes my fingers itch to touch.
