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At first I thought I misheard what Scott had said. Like, there's no way he just said we were going to get married. That didn't make much sense at all.
Sure I broke things off with you-know-who (Not going to think about him right now) but I only excepted Scott's whole master plan or whatever. I didn't agree to some teen marriage at the courthouse.
Maybe he was joking around. It's not like his face gave anything away. His facial features were frozen in this weird sort of calm.
Creepy is what it really was. I stared at him for awhile trying to decipher what was going on in his head.
The truck was still in fact heading undoubtly for the downtown courthouse. I'd only been there once or twice with my parents when they got divorced, but I knew where it was.
I hated the atmosphere. So...Eerily quiet, there was a fair amount of tension as well. I could almost see it. Shouldn't freak out just yet though.
"Scott?" I said, fixing my gaze on him. His fists clenched ever so slightly on the steering wheel but other than that he didn't respond. "Scott, please talk to me."
I was so drained, I couldn't handle this. "What do you want me to say Chloe?" He muttered. "Why are we going to the courthouse?"
"I already told you, to get married." I shook my head, not doing much to clear it. "Scott, we can't get married." He glanced quickly at my face then back to the road.
"Yes we can, you said you dumped Aaron and chose me." I cringed at hearing Aaron's name. "Y-Yes, but you said we could spend the summer f-fixing our relationship or whatever." I said through my teeth.
Honest to God, the last thing I wanted to do was spend the summer fixing our relationship, all I wanted was Aaron. I was ruined. Ruined for anything or anyone else now. Shit.
"Things have changed." Scott said quietly. Obviously doing his best to hold back. "You mean me giving my virginity to Aaron?" I guessed. Ignore the pain, plenty of time for that later.
"Well..." He muttered tightly. Everything sort of clicked after that. Scott was doing this, running off with me to the courthouse, as some kind of way to win me back. He could see what losing Aaron had done.
That I didn't want him the way I should've. My heart belonged to Aaron, it always did. I felt such sadness, such sorrow for what this was doing to Scott. Being second.
I hated myself so much in that moment. Look at what I had done to both the boys I loved.
"Scott, please stop the car." I said shakily. He shook his head. "No." "Scott please stop, we...We can't get m-married, you know that."
A tense minute passed where I thought he was ignoring me, but eventually he pulled over and turned the truck around. "Scott thank yo-"
"Don't Chloe, don't say anything else please. I can't, can't take it right now." He said quietly. "Okay." I whispered and felt tears leak down my face.
They stung worse than the rest because of how raw my skin was from the sobbing earlier. I was close to collapse. I had in fact predicted that some level of emotional stability would collapse, come crashing down.
And I was right. I wouldn't have my breakdown in front of Scott though. He didn't deserve that.
Not a single word was spoken on the ride back to my house. He stared out the windshield like he was transfixed by something I couldn't see. I didn't blame him, I wouldn't want to look at me either. Monsters are ugly.
